Crash

I open my eyes with a lump in my chest.

It takes some time to realise the emptyness!

I raise my head just to stumble out of bed.

My thoughts are positive, I dont feel the dread.

SMASH! just like a car crash!

this wreck I call my life!

Playing on a hell loop!

I feel the edge of my knife.

I've got to get up, I've got to get out!

This is not going to take me out !

This is not going to break me NOW...! SMASH!!!

I'm staring at the ceiling,

when a thought popped in my head!

This gut-wrenching feeling

like I'm the walking dead

but I have to smile at everyone I see!

When I catch this sad reflection,

oh fuck! is that me!

SMASH! just like a car crash!

This wreck I call my life!

Playing on a hell loop!

I feel the edge of my knife!

I've got to get up, I've got to get out!

This is not going to take me out!

I've got to get up, I've got to get out!

This is not going to break me NOW...! SMASH!!!

I lay my head down

it's time to go to sleep!

My heart is still now,

there's not a sound, not a peep!

I remember our nights together

when I though everything was great!

Shit I just realised! You weren't working late!

SMASH! just like a car crash!

this wreck I call my life!

Playing on a hell loop!

I feel the edge of my knife!

I've got to get up, I've got to get out!

This is not going to take me out!

I've got to get up, I've got to get out!

This is not going to break me NOW!......SMASH!