me up out the mud with a heart full of trauma I was duckin’ indictments and runnin’ from karma judge hit my bro with ten left my chest in the sauna lost too many in the streets I don’t feel nothin’ proper servin’ packs in the rain just to fill up a dollar poppin’ pills for the pain tryna quiet the holler mama prayin’ every night that I don’t get caught up but I’m deep in the field like a first-round baller lost my dog to the block now the nights get darker I been fightin’ all these demons and they only get sharper I was sittin’ in a cell writin’ bars in the water thinkin’ how the hell I’m broke but I’m workin’ way harder now I’m chasin’ big racks tryin’ level my life up whole gang in the back and we all gettin’ iced up used to sleep on the floor now the bed feel righteous if the reaper come close then I’m swingin’ like Tyson I was down on my knees with the world on my spine had to hustle for a plate had to scramble for a dime had to cut off fake friends they was wastin’ my time now I’m focused on the bag ain’t no fallin’ in line when you bleed in the trenches you don’t cry you grind lost a lot in my life but I swear I’m still fine got the drugs in the whip and the Glock in the side and the pain in my lungs every breath feel tight used to pray for the sun now I live for the night all the scars on my soul they remind me to fight and I gamble with my past every roll every dice whole life in a war but I move like a vet now I’m stackin’ every check like I’m dodgin’ a debt and the ones that I loved ain’t forgivin’ me yet all the shit that I seen you would never forget I’m a child of the block I’m a son of the gutter I done fucked up my life tryna feed my brother had to bury two friends one year same summer now the heart in my chest don’t feel like it flutter pain got me cold but I walk like a king money got me numb to the hurt that it bring and I still can’t sleep ’cause the loss still sting if you hear my voice break that’s the real in me sing
