(Verse 1)
Then as now, it's so hard for me,
I stand at the crossroads, but I can no longer see a way.
My head screams "go," but my heart holds me tight,
The doubts within me are a constant nest.
(Pre-Chorus)
And I quietly ask myself, where does my step lead?
Should I stay standing, or should I go?
(Chorus)
I want to be free, I want to fly, but I'm afraid of falling.
I want to forget, but time holds me tight.
Between shadow and light, I search for my place,
Then as now – I don't find it right away.
(Verse 2)
Too many voices speak within me,
Each one tells me a different door.
The fear of doing the wrong thing paralyzes my courage,
But standing still hurts, and change is good.
(Pre-Chorus)
And I quietly ask myself, where does my step lead?
Should I stay put, or should I go?
(Chorus)
I want to be free, I want to fly, but I'm afraid of falling.
I want to forget, but I'm holding on to yesterday so tightly.
Between shadow and light, I'm searching for my place.
Then as now – I can't find it right away.
(Bridge – quiet, soulful)
Maybe it's okay not to always know.
Maybe I have to learn not to miss the now.
Maybe life is an open book,
And every decision a new attempt.
(Chorus – emotional, powerful)
I want to be free, I want to fly, but I'm afraid of falling.
I want to forget, but I'm holding on to yesterday so tightly.
Between shadow and light, I'm searching for my place.
Then as now – I can't find it right away.
(Outro – gentle, hopeful)
Then as now – I'm searching for my way.
Maybe I'll find it if the wind carries me.
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