Then and now

(Verse 1)

Then as now, it's so hard for me,

I stand at the crossroads, but I can no longer see a way.

My head screams "go," but my heart holds me tight,

The doubts within me are a constant nest.

(Pre-Chorus)

And I quietly ask myself, where does my step lead?

Should I stay standing, or should I go?

(Chorus)

I want to be free, I want to fly, but I'm afraid of falling.

I want to forget, but time holds me tight.

Between shadow and light, I search for my place,

Then as now – I don't find it right away.

(Verse 2)

Too many voices speak within me,

Each one tells me a different door.

The fear of doing the wrong thing paralyzes my courage,

But standing still hurts, and change is good.

(Pre-Chorus)

And I quietly ask myself, where does my step lead?

Should I stay put, or should I go?

(Chorus)

I want to be free, I want to fly, but I'm afraid of falling.

I want to forget, but I'm holding on to yesterday so tightly.

Between shadow and light, I'm searching for my place.

Then as now – I can't find it right away.

(Bridge – quiet, soulful)

Maybe it's okay not to always know.

Maybe I have to learn not to miss the now.

Maybe life is an open book,

And every decision a new attempt.

(Chorus – emotional, powerful)

I want to be free, I want to fly, but I'm afraid of falling.

I want to forget, but I'm holding on to yesterday so tightly.

Between shadow and light, I'm searching for my place.

Then as now – I can't find it right away.

(Outro – gentle, hopeful)

Then as now – I'm searching for my way.

Maybe I'll find it if the wind carries me.

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