Until I hold you again

[Verse] 1

There are two little faces

I see when I close my eyes,

Two little voices in my heart

That never say goodbye.

Ryker, my beautiful boy,

Raiden, my little light,

Mama whispers both your names

Every single night.

I wonder if you’re sleeping,

I wonder if you’re okay,

If you ever look up at the stars

And think of me the same way.

I wish I could be there

To tuck you both in tight,

To kiss your little foreheads

And tell you, “Mama’s here tonight.”

I miss you, Ryker, I miss you, Raiden,

More than these words could ever say.

Almost a year of empty arms,

Almost a year of missing days.

But no distance can erase

The love inside my heart.

You are my sons, you are my world,

No matter where we are.

And I’ll keep holding onto hope

Until I hold you again.

[Verse] 2

I missed the little moments,

The laughter and the tears,

The birthdays and the bedtime stories,

All the moments through the years.

There are memories I replay

When the nights are hard and long,

And I close my eyes and imagine

That I’m where I belong.

Sometimes Mama cries quietly

When nobody else can see,

Because there’s a piece of my heart

That lives with you, not me.

But underneath the sadness

There’s a promise I still keep:

I’ll never stop loving you,

I’ll never stop believing.

I miss you, Ryker, I miss you, Raiden,

More than these words could ever say.

Almost a year of empty arms,

Almost a year of missing days.

But no distance can erase

The love inside my heart.

You are my sons, you are my world,

No matter where we are.

And I’ll keep holding onto hope

Until I hold you again.

If you ever wonder where Mama is,

Look up at the moon tonight.

I’ll be looking at it too, my boys,

And wishing I could hold you tight.

And if you ever feel forgotten,

Please remember this is true:

Not one second, not one day

Has Mama stopped loving you.

I don’t know how long this road will be,

But I’ll walk it to the end.

Through every tear and every mile,

I’ll find my way back to you again.

I miss you, Ryker, I miss you, Raiden,

My heart calls out your names.

Though I’ve missed so many moments,

My love for you hasn’t changed.

You are the reason I keep fighting,

The reason I still pray.

And when the day finally comes

When I can hold you both again,

I’ll hold you a little tighter

For every missed embrace.

So sleep well, my precious boys,

Wherever you may be.

Mama loves you more than life,

And that will never change.

Ryker… Raiden…

I’m waiting for the day

I can finally say,

“Mama’s here.

And I’m never letting go.”