The Biggests Lie I Ever Tell Myself

I keep telling myself, I don't care anymore

But these little habits, they keep knocking at my door

Every morning I wake up, check the screen

Hoping somehow I see a sign, a message from what used to mean

The notifications, they flash like memories in disguise

Pretending I’m okay, but inside I realize—

It's a lie I keep telling, a truth I can’t deny

Fooling myself with a smile, while inside I cry

Loving you from a distance, still caught in the game

I don't care anymore, but my heart's the same

I don't care anymore, but I still think about you everyday

Watching every move, wishing I could find a way

To turn back time, erase the pain that I feel

I don't care anymore, but these thoughts are real

Your account's window, my secret zone

Looking for signs, afraid I might be all alone

Waiting for that ping, that little spark of hope

In a world where I’m lost, trying to cope

It's the biggest lie I ever tell myself

Covering up how I really felt

Hoping for a message, a sign, some proof

That I meant something to you

I don't care anymore, but I still think about you everyday

Watching every move, wishing I could find a way

To turn back time, erase the pain that I feel

I don't care anymore, but these thoughts are real

Maybe someday I’ll let go, find the strength to move on

But right now, these feelings, they’re so strong

Pretending I’m fine, hiding the ache

Living with a lie I can’t fake

So I tell myself, I don’t care anymore

But deep down I know, I still want more

The biggest lie I ever tell myself

Is that I don’t care anymore