The Biggests Lie I Ever Tell Myself

[Intro]
I keep telling myself, I don't care anymore
But these little habits, they keep knocking at my door

[Verse 1]
Every morning I wake up, check the screen
Hoping somehow I see a sign, a message from what used to mean
The notifications, they flash like memories in disguise
Pretending I’m okay, but inside I realize—

[Pre-Chorus]
It's a lie I keep telling, a truth I can’t deny
Fooling myself with a smile, while inside I cry
Loving you from a distance, still caught in the game
I don't care anymore, but my heart's the same

[Chorus]
I don't care anymore, but I still think about you everyday
Watching every move, wishing I could find a way
To turn back time, erase the pain that I feel
I don't care anymore, but these thoughts are real

[Verse 2]
Your account's window, my secret zone
Looking for signs, afraid I might be all alone
Waiting for that ping, that little spark of hope
In a world where I’m lost, trying to cope

[Pre-Chorus]
It's the biggest lie I ever tell myself
Covering up how I really felt
Hoping for a message, a sign, some proof
That I meant something to you

[Chorus]
I don't care anymore, but I still think about you everyday
Watching every move, wishing I could find a way
To turn back time, erase the pain that I feel
I don't care anymore, but these thoughts are real

[Bridge]
Maybe someday I’ll let go, find the strength to move on
But right now, these feelings, they’re so strong
Pretending I’m fine, hiding the ache
Living with a lie I can’t fake

[Outro]
So I tell myself, I don’t care anymore
But deep down I know, I still want more
The biggest lie I ever tell myself
Is that I don’t care anymore

Indie pop, emotional ballad, soft acoustic guitar, soulful vocals