I Didn’t Know How to Hold You
[Verse 1]
You were lightning in a quiet room
Half wildfire, half grace
You could make the heaviest nights
Feel lighter just standing in the same place
And I loved you like a desperate man
Trying to stop time moving on
I thought love meant never loosening
Never risking being alone
[Pre-Chorus]
Maybe I held on too tightly
Maybe I let fear take hold
Maybe love needs open hands
More than arms that won’t let go
[Chorus]
I didn’t know how to hold you
I didn’t know how to love you right
I pulled too hard when you needed freedom
Turned every doubt into a fight
I loved you with frightened hands
With all my damage showing through
And somewhere between too much and not enough
I lost you trying to hold on to you
[Verse 2]
You wanted someone steady-handed
Someone solid when the dark rolled in
Not a man constantly searching
For proof you’d choose him again
You were trying to give me solid ground
Something honest I could stand on
But it left me like a drowning man
Grabbing hard instead of holding on
[Pre-Chorus]
Sometimes you needed strong arms around you
Sometimes you needed space to breathe
Sometimes you needed me to fight for us
Sometimes just sit and listen deep
But love ain’t guessing in the dark
Or dragging fear from room to room
It’s learning someone’s heart out loud
Before the silence decides for you
[Chorus]
I didn’t know how to hold you
I didn’t know how to love you right
I built walls around forever
And watched them fall in a single night
I loved you with shaking hands
Like I was bracing for bad news
And somewhere between too much and not enough
I lost the best thing I could lose
[Pre-Bridge]
You wanted fire that kept changing
Not just comfort dressed as touch
To feel the moment turning restless
When the feeling started building up
You wanted hands that carried confidence
Rhythm strong enough to pull you in
The kind of love that takes your breath some
But still feels safe beneath your skin
To lose a little control beside me
And trust wherever I might go
Because you knew my heart was holding you
Even in the rush you couldn’t slow
You wanted passion that stayed fearless
Alive enough to leave a mark
Not pain that came from being broken
Just the sharp electric spark
And I see it clearer now
What you were trying to give to us
That love is more than being wanted
Sometimes it’s daring someone to trust
[Bridge]
Now every memory cuts cleaner
Every silence feels brand new
And the hardest part of losing you
Is knowing how hard you tried to stay true
If love is more than just devotion
More than needing someone close
Then maybe I learned it too late
The moment you finally let go
[Final Chorus]
I didn’t know how to hold you
I didn’t know how to love you then
I thought love was holding tighter
Not knowing when to loosen my hands
And if I ever love again
I’ll carry the truth I learned from you
That hearts don’t break from lack of feeling
Sometimes they break from too much of it too
