Ringmaster in My Mind

Step right up, step inside

Big top in my skull tonight

Watch the clowns and demons fight

For the center ring of my mind

I wake up to the circus, ringmaster in my brain

One voice juggling my secrets, another breathing flame

One tightrope-walks my patience, one heckles every feat

I’m selling tickets at the gate to every fear I meet

I try to find the exits, but the tent just grows and grows

One clown ties balloon regrets, one demon steals the show

They sell popcorn made of memories, cotton candy made of shame

And I’m just here applauding like I haven’t gone insane

Oh, I’m not alone in here

Got a circus crowd that steers the wheel

Some say hate, some say cheer

Some just laugh and drink my fear

I keep the volume low, but they still find me

When I try to let go, they remind me

Welcome to the main event, the freak show in your head

Where we dance around your sanity and tuck you into bed

We got clowns in broken mirrors, we got beasts you never tamed

Watch ‘em trample every hope you built, set fire to your name

We’re the voice that says you’re worthless, we’re the laugh behind the mask

We’re the ring of roaring judgment, we’re the questions you won’t ask

Better clap for your tormentors, better cheer for the collapse

‘Cause the circus never leaves you once you let it set its traps

I’m tired of the ticket lines

Tired of the painted grins

Tired of the encore

When the lights go dim

But you’re my longest-running show

My oldest cast of thieves

So take another bow

And bring me to my knees

One voice says, “You’re okay.”

You’re the freak, you’re the prey!

One says, “It’s just a phase.”

Wear the mask, join the parade! [Clowns Laughing]

One says, “Take a breath.”

Better choke on regret!

One says, “We can heal.”

But we own you still!

Oh, I’m not alone in here

Got a circus crowd that steers the wheel

Some say hate, some say cheer

Some just laugh and drink my fear

I keep the volume low, but they still find me

When I try to let go, they remind me

So tonight, I’ll pour a toast

To the ringmaster and the ghosts

May you hush when I’m dreaming

May you laugh when I’m close

You’re the circus in my head space

The crowd I can’t outgrow

And even in the dark

You still steal the show

To the ringmaster and the ghosts

May you hush when I’m dreaming

May you laugh when I’m close

You’re the circus in my head space

The crowd I can’t outgrow

And even in the dark

You still steal the show