Late to the Party

Another wedding on my screen/Smiling faces in my feed/I mute the sound and stare/At my takeout on the chair/Same old messages at 2 a.m/“Come through?” from a maybe friend/I type “I’m busy” then I lie/Watch the ceiling let the night go by

I feel late to the party/Everyone’s gone home with somebody/I’m still here collecting scars/Counting ghosts instead of stars/Yeah I’m tired of these almost half-hearted goodbyes/Kissing through the hurt pretending I’m fine/If love won’t come then maybe I/Gotta learn to love the guy who’s late to the party tonight

Still compare you to her laugh/To his touch to what we had/Every kiss a little test/You keep failing someone else’s past/I miss laughing in cheap bars/Careless hearts and borrowed cars/Now every birthday burns a bit/More candles less magic in it

I feel late to the party/Everyone’s gone home with somebody/I’m still here collecting scars/Counting ghosts instead of stars/Yeah I’m tired of these almost half-hearted goodbyes/Kissing through the hurt pretending I’m fine/If love won’t come then maybe I/Gotta learn to love the guy who’s late to the party tonight

I’m not a loser just bruised and older/Still flinch when a good thing leans on my shoulder (oh)/But if it’s me I’m running from/How can I ever let you come?/So here’s to the mirrors I’ve been hiding/Here’s to the heart I keep dividing/I’ll stay I’ll stay this time/On my own side

I’ve been late to the party/But I’ll go home tonight with somebody/He’s been waiting in my eyes/Through the heartache through the lies/Yeah I’m done with these almost half-hearted goodbyes/I’ll hold my broken call it mine if love won’t come then that’s alright/‘Cause I’m learning to love the guy who walks out of the party alone but still alive