Thug Tears

[Verse 1]
Fast life, slow pain, heart in a choke chain
Smile on my face, inside it’s a broke frame
Every “I’m good” just code for “I’m hopeless”
Laugh with the crew, then I bleed when the door shuts
Tatted-up arms, but my soul got scars
Whole block think I’m hard, can’t show these marks
Mama say “pray,” bros say “grind”
I just nod, then I cry where they can’t find
Pistol in the drawer, pills on the dresser
Phone full of texts, still feel lesser
Scroll through pics, can’t call, can’t speak
Got a gang, but this pain still deep
[Chorus]
I’m that thug who don’t cry in the daylight (daylight)
But I’m dying every night in the same fight (same fight)
Got my back to the wall, no one ever hears
So I’m dripping, I’m dripping these thug tears (yeah)
Thug tears
Running down, but they vanish when the sun nears
Thug tears
I’m alone in a room full of my fears
[Verse 2]
Yeah, I’m built for the smoke, not built for confessing
Got a mask on my face, that’s my only protection
“Real men don’t fold,” that’s the code that I learned
So I swallow all the trauma till my chest just burns
Homies talk money, talk war, talk chains
But never ‘bout panic attacks in the rain
Never ‘bout choking on shame when it’s quiet
Never ‘bout praying that the car just flies
Staring at the ceiling like it owe me truth
Heart heavy like the metal that I keep in the booth
I’m a “problem,” I’m a “beast,” I’m a “whole lotta pressure”
Still a kid in the dark with a tear-soaked sweater
[Chorus]
I’m that thug who don’t cry in the daylight (daylight)
But I’m dying every night in the same fight (same fight)
Got my back to the wall, no one ever hears
So I’m dripping, I’m dripping these thug tears (yeah)
Thug tears
Running down, but they vanish when the sun nears
Thug tears
I’m alone in a room full of my fears
[Bridge]
If I say “I’m hurting,” you gon’ call me weak?
If I put this pain in words, you gon’ let me speak?
Or I gotta keep frontin’ till my heart just stops
Another hard body buried ‘cause he couldn’t talk (talk)
[Chorus]
I’m that thug who don’t cry in the daylight (daylight)
But I’m dying every night in the same fight (same fight)
Got my back to the wall, no one ever hears
So I’m dripping, I’m dripping these thug tears (yeah)
Thug tears
Running down, but they vanish when the sun nears
Thug tears
I’m alone in a room full of my fears

rap, Dark, urgent trap beat at 150 BPM, male vocals. Tight hi-hats and snarling bass under fast, breathless verses; hook opens wider with eerie choir pads and distant vocal chops. Ad-libs tucked back in the mix; occasional beat drop-outs to spotlight raw a cappella bars, then full-impact slam back in with distorted 808 swells on the final hook.