I just wish you would have said good bye

You can't save them all. An I'm sorry, to all those I tried to save, but didn't succeed. I beat myself up, I feel as though I failed you. But at the same time, I know you made your choices. I know you you did what you wanted. I know you heard my warnings. I k ow you still didn't care. You always though it wouldn't happen to you. You were so confident in your choices. I tried to do more. But watching you destroy yourself, destroyed me. I couldn't handle seeing you on that downward spiral. I had to walk away. I'm sorry, if you feel I let you down in some way, but you chose to live your life like that. You chose not to listen. I never stopped loving you. I never stopped being your friend. Now it's too late, you are gone forever. I'll never get to hug you. I'll never see your smile. I'll never hear your laugh. I'll see you again when my time comes. I know you are still with me in spirit, and listen to everything I have to say to you. I know you can hear me, now. I can feel your regrets. I can hear the things you wish you would have done different. I just wish you would have said good bye.