Haven’t Been Home

(breathy, almost spoken)

Ooh…

Yeah…

Verse 1

Been running in circles I don’t recognize

Sleeping for hours but I’m dead inside

I carry these secrets like bricks in my chest

Smile in the mirror, but I’m still a mess

I tried to be solid, tried to be strong

But somewhere between right and wrong

I lost the part of me that knew my name

Now I just numb it out, hoping it fades

Pre-Chorus

I feel it creeping up my spine

Every bad habit, every wasted night

I keep saying I’ll be fine

But I don’t even know who I am tonight

Chorus

Sorry, but I haven’t been home

Yeah, I’ve been gone way too long

I’m looking like somebody else

Somebody I don’t know

I don’t know…

Sorry, but I haven’t been home

I’m tired of carrying this alone

Can somebody take my place

Just for a while

I’m worn out

Trying to live this life

Verse 2

Feels like there’s no door out of this room

Just a thousand reasons to stay confused

I burned myself trying to feel okay

Now every white lie’s catching flames

Ain’t nobody ever fooled me worse

Than the voice in my head when it hurts

I keep chasing peace in the wrong damn places

Yeah, I know better — still I chase it

Pre-Chorus 2

These walls are closing in on me

Every step feels heavier

I swear I’m trying just to breathe

But I’m sinking deeper

Chorus

Sorry, but I haven’t been home

Yeah, I’ve been gone way too long

I’m looking like somebody else

Somebody I don’t know

I don’t know…

Sorry, but I haven’t been home

I’m tired of carrying this alone

Can somebody take my place

Just for a while

I’m worn out

Trying to live this life

I don’t feel sad, I don’t feel mad

That’s what scares me the most

I’ve been numb so long

I forgot how hope feels

I ain’t chasing highs

I ain’t running from pain

I just wanna feel like myself again

Yeah… just myself again

Sorry, but I haven’t been home

I’ve been lost way too long

I’m turning into someone

I don’t even know

Sorry, but I haven’t been home

I swear I’m trying to find my way back

If there’s still a piece of me left

I hope he’s waiting

Yeah…

Ooh…

So here’s to the man I used to be

Yeah…

Hope he’s still inside of me