[Verse]
2 a.m., city breathing through the blinds
Phone lights up but I’m still stuck on your mind
I laugh with them, pour another drink
Tell myself I’m fine, but I don’t even blink
Every face I touch feel borrowed, not real
They don’t hit the same, don’t know how I feel
I say your name quiet when I’m alone
Like if I say it loud, you’ll find your way home
[Pre Chorus]
I been running from the truth
Sleeping in somebody new
I don’t wanna feel attached
But I’m already attached to you
[Chorus]
I’m with somebody just to forget you
But it don’t work, no it don’t do
I’m trying to replace what I never had
But every road lead back to you
I hate the pull, I hate the need
I hate how bad you got to me
I don’t wanna want you this bad
But I can’t deny what you do to me
[Verse]
I play it cool, I play pretend
Tell my boys I’m good again
But they don’t see the nights I fold
When your memory take control
You don’t even know the power
How you ruin every hour
Every kiss just feel like proof
That I’m lying when I say I’m over you
[Pre Chorus]
I been touching other skin
Just to numb what’s underneath
I don’t wanna fall in love
But you live inside of me
[Chorus]
I’m with somebody just to forget you
But it don’t work, no it don’t do
I’m trying to drown you in the crowd
But you the loudest voice in the room
I hate the pull, I hate the need
I hate how bad you got to me
I don’t wanna want you this bad
But I can’t deny what you do to me
[Bridge]
If I told you how I feel
Would you run or would you stay?
I been scared of what is real
So I hide behind the pain
Every time I choose the dark
It just bring me back to you
I don’t like this side of love
But I’m losing all my rules
[Outro]
I’m tired of pretending I don’t care
Tired of finding you everywhere
If desire’s a sin, I confess
I can’t fuck my way out of this
