“Missin’ Me”

You ever been in a room full of people,

and still feel like you disappeared?

Not ‘cause they ain’t love you…

But ‘cause you ain’t recognize who you was anymore.

Yeah… that’s what this one’s about.

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I was losin’ me while I tried to be solid

Pain in my gut, but I kept shit polished

Smiles for the fam, war in my chest

Whole lotta love, but still feel less

Mirror don’t lie, I was dead in the glance

Tryna hold on, but I slipped from my stance

Ain’t nobody take me, I gave me away

Now I’m tryna find that kid I betrayed

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I been numb, I been low, I been lost in me

Wasn’t drugs, wasn’t jail — it was mentally

I could feel all the ghosts in my chest at night

Tellin’ me “quit,” tryna cut out the light

Played the role, yeah, I wore that mask

Told jokes, cracked smiles, while the hurt went fast

Inside, I was hollow, no roots, just floatin’

Even in love, I felt frozen, broken

Grew up strong, yeah, they built me tough

But nobody teach how to bleed in the rough

I ain’t scared to die — I was scared to fade

Scared I’d forget the real me I made

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I was losin’ me while I tried to be solid

Pain in my gut, but I kept shit polished

Smiles for the fam, war in my chest

Whole lotta love, but still feel less

Mirror don’t lie, I was dead in the glance

Tryna hold on, but I slipped from my stance

Ain’t nobody take me, I gave me away

Now I’m tryna find that kid I betrayed

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I remember days I ain’t talk to myself

Scrollin’ through pics like, “who is this help?”

Had people checkin’ but I ducked they calls

‘Cause I ain’t wanna cry when I faced those walls

I’d look in the smoke just to see my shape

Tryna breathe through the guilt and the fuckin’ hate

People said “you blessed” — I ain’t feel that shit

I was walkin’ through hell just tryna commit

But I ain’t break, I just cracked for a while

Lost in the dark, couldn’t feel my style

Now I’m searchin’, diggin’, buildin’ again

Tryna pull that soul out from deep within

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I was losin’ me while I tried to be solid

Pain in my gut, but I kept shit polished

Smiles for the fam, war in my chest

Whole lotta love, but still feel less

Mirror don’t lie, I was dead in the glance

Tryna hold on, but I slipped from my stance

Ain’t nobody take me, I gave me away

Now I’m tryna find that kid I betrayed

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It wasn’t the world that killed me…

It was me… forgettin’ who I was.

But I’m comin’ back.

Slow… but I’m comin’ back.

Always systematic