Room In My Hoodie

Text read “seen”

Left me on that screen

I been staring at this ceiling

Like it might answer me

Cold food on the counter

Didn’t touch my plate

Got my friends at the door

But I told ‘em “too late”

Scroll feeds, see love

It just feel like a scam

They got smiles in their pictures

I got pills in my hand

Mama call, I decline

Say I’m “busy with work”

Really I’m busy with

Trying not to get hurt

I put love in a room in my hoodie

Zip it up tight so it never really show

Everybody say “you good?” I say “truly”

But I’m lying through my teeth

And you’ll never really know

Yeah, I drown in the dark when it’s quiet

Every laugh that I fake feel violent

I put love in a room in my hoodie

‘Cause my heart can’t handle getting broke

Therapist say “talk”

I just nod at the floor

Got a storm in my chest

Can’t fit through the door

Every “how you been?”

Sound like “you still alive?”

I just shrug, say “fine”

That’s a rehearsed reply

Used to dream ‘bout a future

We was picking out names

Now I wake up at noon

Try forgetting your face

All the “forevers” you whispered

Still ring in my skull

You walked out in one moment

Left the silence full