(Verse 1 )
My first friend in fifth grade, when I was new in town
Name like Loretta Lynn’s father, always hanging around
You were the first place in my heart, first one to make it race
Didn’t know what love was then, just knew I loved your face
(Verse 2)
Working with you was such a good time
Always making me laugh on the long-day grind
You’d joke around and tease me, say I should bark on cue
I laughed it off and hid it, but God, I wanted you
(Pre-Chorus)
Every chapter, every crush
Another boy I couldn’t touch
(Chorus)
A gay man with crushes
Yeah, what’s new?
I’m a gay boy in love with another
Straight dude
Yeah, a gay boy with a crush
Funny, tragic fate
Always wanting somebody
Who could never feel the same
(Verse 3)
Best friends for a year, what a blur
All I remember are feelings and unspoken words
Truth or dare got us kisses when we were alone
But could there have been more? I guess I’ll never know
(Verse 4 )
I emailed this guy, asked him on a date
He said, “Sorry bro, I only like blonde babes”
Read that line a hundred times, tried hard not to cry
Wondering why I’m always the wrong kind of guy
(Pre-Chorus)
Every chapter, every crush
Another almost, never us
(Chorus)
A gay man with crushes
Yeah, what’s new?
I’m a gay boy in love with another
Straight dude
Yeah, a gay boy with a crush
Funny, tragic fate
Always wanting somebody
Who could never feel the same
(Verse 5)
Locker rooms still haunt me, even to this day
’Cause you thought it was funny to mess with me that way
You touched me and flirted, said you liked me too
Then laughed behind my back because I was a dude
Why did you enjoy all those twisted games?
I would’ve gave you the world, but you just gave me shame
(Bridge)
So many guys, so little time
So many crushes I buried inside
’Cause in a small town, all I ever knew
Was falling for boys who’d never want me too
Never gay, always straight
Every hallway, every heartbreak
Still I keep on hoping, even after all I’ve been through
Maybe someday there’ll be a boy
Who wants me like I want him too
(Final Chorus)
A gay man with crushes
Yeah, what’s new?
But maybe one day I’ll find somebody
Who comes through
And I won’t be the gay boy
Chasing another straight dude
I’ll be somebody’s first choice
And he’ll love me too
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