You're Still Here by Eilidhschy - Zona

You're Still Here by Eilidhschy - Zona

Lyrics

[Intro – sparse piano, distant strings]

There are two of me in here…

And neither one leaves

[Verse 1 – Optimistic]

Alright, we’re getting up today

No perfect path, just a better way

I’ve got breath, I’ve got a plan

Trying to be more than I am

Even if it shakes, even if it bends

I’ll start again where it never ends

[Verse 2 – Pessimistic]

Oh here we go again, you talk

Like words will fix what you lost

You restart every time it ends

Same mistakes you call “making amends”

You don’t move, you just rename the stall

Call it growth, but it’s nothing at all

[Pre-Chorus – split voices]

[Optimistic] I can change this

[Pessimistic] You always say this

[Optimistic] I just need time

[Pessimistic] You always waste it

[Optimistic] Not this time

[Pessimistic] You said that last time

[Chorus – cinematic dark pop]

[Optimistic] I’m ready to try, I’m ready to move

[Pessimistic] You’re ready to fail, nothing to prove

[Optimistic] Maybe I rise if I don’t give in

[Pessimistic] You always end where you begin

[Optimistic] What if I don’t—

[Pessimistic] You always do

[Optimistic] What if I finally—

[Pessimistic] No. Not you.

[Optimistic] I feel it changing

[Pessimistic] You’re imagining

[Verse 3 – Optimistic]

But I still get up through the noise

Through doubt that steals my voice

Even when the day feels long

I hum a future I’m not strong enough to prove wrong

But I still try, I still lean in

Even when I don’t know where I begin

[Verse 4 – Pessimistic]

“Not done” is what you always say

Before you drift it all away

You don’t change, you just delay

Call it courage, call it play

But I’ve seen every version you wear

Same eyes, same empty stare

You don’t break out, you just bend the story

Make excuses sound like glory

[Bridge – fractured, overlapping]

[Optimistic] I can—

[Pessimistic] —no you won’t

[Optimistic] Just let me—

[Pessimistic] —you don’t

[Optimistic] I’m trying—

[Pessimistic] —you’re coping

[Optimistic] I’m close—

[Pessimistic] —you’re hoping

[Break – soft, neo-classical piano solo, breathy vocal]

[Optimistic] I just want to believe I’m not stuck…

[Pessimistic] Same hands, same luck…

[Optimistic] But something feels different this time…

[Pessimistic] That’s how it hooks you every time…

[Final Chorus – full cinematic lift, strings + deep sub bass]

[Optimistic] I’m ready to try, I’m ready to move

[Pessimistic] You’re ready to fail, nothing to prove

[Optimistic] Maybe I rise if I don’t give in

[Pessimistic] You always end where you begin

[Optimistic] But I’m still standing—

[Pessimistic] Barely landing—

[Optimistic] What if I don’t break?

[Pessimistic] You always fake

[Optimistic] I hear it softer now…

[Pessimistic] I’m still here somehow…

Not broken, not perfect, just loud in my head

Two versions of me in the same small bed

And maybe I’m not meant to choose a side…

Just learn how to stay while they argue inside

[Outro – fading piano, voices merging]

[Optimistic] I’m still here…

[Pessimistic] I know…

[Optimistic] so are you…

[Pessimistic] Unfortunately.