(Verse 1)
Woke up with a headache and a bad excuse
Same four walls, same déjà vu
Every promise tastes like rust
Every “maybe” turns to dust
You say I’m fine, I say I’m numb
Laugh it off like it’s just for fun
But the mirror knows my name
And it’s screaming all the same
(Pre-Chorus)
I swear I tried to clean the mess
But it’s stuck under my skin
(Chorus)
I’m plagued by the thoughts I can’t outrun
Every night feels like I’ve already lost
I’m plagued by the damage I never done
But I’m paying the cost
If I scream it out, would it go away?
Or am I stuck like this, locked in place?
Yeah, I’m plagued,
And I hate that it feels like home
(Verse 2)
Counting cracks in the ceiling fan
Every “what if” got the upper hand
You said, “Grow up, it’s all in your head”
Funny how it still keeps me in bed
I light it up just to watch it burn
Guess I never really learn
I joke like I’m bulletproof
But every word still cuts right through
(Pre-Chorus)
I fake a smile, bite my tongue
But the damage is already done
(Chorus)
I’m plagued by the thoughts I can’t outrun
Every night feels like I’ve already lost
I’m plagued by the damage I never done
But I’m paying the cost
If I scream it out, would it go away?
Or am I stuck like this, locked in place?
Yeah, I’m plagued,
And I hate that it feels like home
(Bridge)
Maybe I’m broken, maybe I’m bored
Maybe I’m tired of keeping score
If this is healing, I want it gone
I’ve been holding on too long
(Final Chorus)
I’m plagued by the weight of yesterday
By every word I never said
I’m plagued, but I’m still awake
Still breathing in the wreckage
If I burn it down, will I feel okay?
Or just stand here watching it fade?
Yeah, I’m plagued,
But I’m still screaming your name
(Outro)
I’m plagued
But I’m not done yet