Plagued

(Verse 1)

Woke up with a headache and a bad excuse

Same four walls, same déjà vu

Every promise tastes like rust

Every “maybe” turns to dust

You say I’m fine, I say I’m numb

Laugh it off like it’s just for fun

But the mirror knows my name

And it’s screaming all the same

(Pre-Chorus)

I swear I tried to clean the mess

But it’s stuck under my skin

(Chorus)

I’m plagued by the thoughts I can’t outrun

Every night feels like I’ve already lost

I’m plagued by the damage I never done

But I’m paying the cost

If I scream it out, would it go away?

Or am I stuck like this, locked in place?

Yeah, I’m plagued,

And I hate that it feels like home

(Verse 2)

Counting cracks in the ceiling fan

Every “what if” got the upper hand

You said, “Grow up, it’s all in your head”

Funny how it still keeps me in bed

I light it up just to watch it burn

Guess I never really learn

I joke like I’m bulletproof

But every word still cuts right through

(Pre-Chorus)

I fake a smile, bite my tongue

But the damage is already done

(Chorus)

I’m plagued by the thoughts I can’t outrun

Every night feels like I’ve already lost

I’m plagued by the damage I never done

But I’m paying the cost

If I scream it out, would it go away?

Or am I stuck like this, locked in place?

Yeah, I’m plagued,

And I hate that it feels like home

(Bridge)

Maybe I’m broken, maybe I’m bored

Maybe I’m tired of keeping score

If this is healing, I want it gone

I’ve been holding on too long

(Final Chorus)

I’m plagued by the weight of yesterday

By every word I never said

I’m plagued, but I’m still awake

Still breathing in the wreckage

If I burn it down, will I feel okay?

Or just stand here watching it fade?

Yeah, I’m plagued,

But I’m still screaming your name

(Outro)

I’m plagued

But I’m not done yet