Growth

You will never understand the destruction that I caused for me to find peace 
An animal lurking within its own 
Sadness and anger waiting for the moment to attack for the pleasure to see
You wouldn’t know me than
I was much colder then 
scratching the surface with fire
With hunger for blood again
The seeking 
Beating 
And believing 
Reaching
Needing
Something meaningful 
To keep my purpose leading 
Reading 
Thoughts of emotion bleeding
Breathing 
Sin and 
Seeping
And I never broke even when my people died 
 Who was the first one to come in all black when it was time to ride 
Now people from the past acting like they’ve been something’
But all they are, are some liars turned bums man.

I changed because I needed to
Not because I needed you
I saw my own flaws and I did the work and seen it through 
And now you come down asking for my own grace 
But that ain’t my problem so go find your own plate  
I changed because I needed to
Not because I needed you
I saw my own flaws and I did the work and seen it through 
And now you come down asking for my own grace 
But that ain’t my problem so go find your own plate


Being grown is biting your lip when people run their mouth
And keep working hard and pretend 
You don’t hear them calling out
You don’t owe them anything 
They’re the reason they’re still scrounging in the dirt 
And you’re the reason that your babies stay fed and covered just learn 
Nobody’s worth your peace and quiet 
You don’t need to prove how down you are 
Just get up everyday thank god and grind for what you know you are
Know who you are and what you’re worth 
Work hard and raise your babies 
Make money not problems 
If something tries to stop you then swerve you for this 

I changed because I needed to
Not because I needed you
I saw my own flaws and I did the work and seen it through 
And now you come down asking for my own grace 
But that ain’t my problem so go find your own plate  
I changed because I needed to
Not because I needed you
I saw my own flaws and I did the work and seen it through 
And now you come down asking for my own grace 
But that ain’t my problem so go find your own plate

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