Verse 1
Missed your call again last night
Phone lit up but I let it die
I was staring at the ceiling fan
Thinking ‘bout who I am
You said, “Why do you disappear?”
I said, “I’m just bad this year”
Truth is I don’t know what to say
When it starts feeling real that way
Pre-Chorus
I type it out, then delete it fast
Like if I send it, it won’t last
Chorus
And I don’t wanna mess this up
But I think I already did enough
You say, “Talk to me, what’s going on?”
I just say I’m tired and move along
And I know you’re getting sick of me
Half-in love, half-in apathy
I keep you close, then push away
Missed your call again today
Verse 2
You showed up at my door at noon
Said, “You’ve been acting weird, it’s true”
I laughed it off, said I’ve been fine
But I couldn’t look you in the eye
You sat down on my bedroom floor
Like you’ve been there a hundred times before
Said, “I don’t know you like I used to”
I didn’t know what to do
Pre-Chorus
‘Cause I don’t even know myself
How am I supposed to help?
Chorus
And I don’t wanna mess this up
But I think I already did enough
You say, “Talk to me, what’s going on?”
I just say I’m tired and move along
And I know you’re getting sick of me
Half-in love, half-in apathy
I keep you close, then push away
Missed your call again today
Bridge (breakdown, quieter then builds)
Maybe I’m scared of the way you see me
Like I’m someone I could actually be
And if I try, then I might lose
The excuse I always use
Final Chorus (bigger, more chaotic guitars)
I didn’t mean to mess this up
But I think I never knew enough
You said, “I tried, I really did”
I just stood there like a kid
Now your name’s just a memory
And it’s all catching up to me
I had the chance, I let it slip
Missed your call… and that was it
Outro (soft, lo-fi fading)
Phone still lighting up my room
But it’s never you
