Never His, Never Yours

(Verse 1)
Maybe it was never love—just a curse I was born into,
A home built on silence, thick like smoke, choking me through.
Watched my mother shrink, watched my father swing,
Every word, a blade, every night, a war with no ending.
(Pre-Chorus)
They say love is supposed to be safe, supposed to be kind,
But all I ever learned was how to run, how to hide.
If love wears a mask of violence, if love leaves bruises to trace,
Then I’d rather die alone than beg to be replaced.
(Chorus)
Never again will I bow just to survive,
Never again will I bleed just to feel alive.
If love ever comes, it won’t taste like pain,
It won’t ask me to break just to carry its name.
(Verse 2)
Maa begged with hands that shook, pleaded with tear-stained eyes,
For something as small as a new saree—
He laughed, said, “Who’d even notice you?”
As if she wasn’t even worth being seen.
(Pre-Chorus)
They say love is supposed to be safe, supposed to be kind,
But all I ever learned was how to run, how to hide.
If love wears a mask of violence, if love leaves bruises to trace,
Then I’d rather die alone than beg to be replaced.
(Chorus)
Never again will I bow just to survive,
Never again will I bleed just to feel alive.
If love ever comes, it won’t taste like pain,
It won’t ask me to break just to carry its name.
(Bridge)
I’ve planned my own death more times than I’ve dreamed,
I know the weight of the cold bathroom floor at 3 AM.
I know what it means to choke back a scream,
To wonder if leaving is the only way to win.
But if love ever finds me, it won’t come in fists or chains,
It won’t make me beg, it won’t make me stay.
It will hold my name like something sacred,
Or it will never have me at all.
(Outro)
Never his, never yours, never anyone’s to break.
If I have to crawl, I will—
But I will never, ever, be afraid.

Female singer, dark pop, sad, melodic EDM, slow space-trance, haunting, electro, R&B, Melancholic, Depressive, emotion