What if…….?

What if I never met you?
What if I never sat right there……
-right next to you
What if I never chose to bend the rules?
-What if I never heard about the truth?
-(shit——It’s a cold world…….)
What if I never chose to pick the pen up?
Eternally stuck as a beginnuh…..
(The rhythms………)
Melodies engraved into my system
The words I wrote down….
They growing heavier than I remember….
The fact I still remember bout December
(Cold……)
She was posed to carry my placenta……
My unborn child…….
-a date crossed out my agenda
-But——whatever
Let her tell the story
-I’m the one that’s lacking effort…..
I’m Three doors down
-My hearts empty
-But it beats profound
An old soul with a neo sound….
The chicks love it…..
-but the fellas say it needs more rounds
So I jot down
-Then load up…..
Press release———and then Aim it at everybody around
-see
I’m the type to kill everybody who doubted me
Try and see….
The consequence of the underdog…..
Chewing through silent beef
-I do not——-dare to endorse violence
-But tragedies………..
Ensue……
The common grounds found…….
-between me and you….
No more war
Cuz you the one that I adore
For sure
(How many?)
How many times I gotta repeat?
Til I’m deceased…..
Put the guns down….
-embrace the relief……
I said-

Rap, Hip hop-soul, deep, introspective, soul, poetic