Fighting To Heal My Happiness

I feel like my life is just a wall and I am trying to climb over but ever time I try to get over it is just another wall that’s there when try to break out of my comfort zone it seems like something make want to go back in to that zone I try to be happy in life but I am not I don’t know when i will get to that point life is like a dream. every time put myself out there for love it’s like a merry go around I’m going round and around some days I feel like trying to get out and find someone But when I think about it just feels like it would take so much energy from me just trying to find love, and love supposed to come natural you shouldn’t have to find love it should come to you. But maybe if I just focus on me and heal my soul within and don’t think about the thought of being lonely someone one will come along when I least expect it, I had goals I had dreams I wanted to accomplish but my focus was not there I could go to school and work but things didn’t work out the way I wanted them to I had a plan A for the future but not a plan B I feel like every time I try in life it’s like a treadmill I keep running and running but not getting no where maybe if think like I am on a track field ready for a race , run then jump so high like there is no obstacles I can run for the win in this thing called life.