[Spoken Intro – Cold, Echoed Breath Over Ambient Trap]
March 20, 2025.
Another suicidal thought.
Didn’t cry. Didn’t scream.
Just looked in the mirror and exhaled.
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[Hook – Slow, Hollow Trap Beat with Melodic Layering]
March 20th, felt my breath go ghost
Smoke in the glass, heart froze the most
Stared at the mirror like, “this the end?”
But I ain’t fold — I ain’t let that bend
Pain got deep, but the soul got loud
Whispers in my head tryna pull me down
Didn’t pull the trigger, didn’t take that fall
But that thought came back like a missed call
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[Verse 1 – Snapshot of the Moment]
I was shirtless, numb, blowin’ smoke in the light
No music, no noise, just a long-ass night
Necklace swingin’ like my faith in air
Wonderin’ who the fuck would even care
Didn’t tell mom, didn’t text no soul
Held that thought like a pocket full of coal
Heat on my chest but the world stayed cold
And the mirror ain’t blink when the truth got told
Caption in my mind: “One more try”
“Maybe next time I won’t survive”
Didn’t plan it, it just crept in slow
Like, “what if I just let this go?”
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[Hook – Slightly More Aggressive Delivery]
March 20th, felt my breath go ghost
Smoke in the glass, heart froze the most
Stared at the mirror like, “this the end?”
But I ain’t fold — I ain’t let that bend
Pain got deep, but the soul got loud
Whispers in my head tryna pull me down
Didn’t pull the trigger, didn’t take that fall
But that thought came back like a missed call
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[Verse 2 – Surviving Without Apology]
They say talk about it — I just write in flame
Turn hurt into bars, that’s how I stay sane
But March 20th hit with no warnin’
Felt like God hit snooze on the mornin’
Every breath was a battle, every step was a test
Tried to pray, but I choked on my chest
Didn’t want to die, but I ain’t want to live
Just wanted silence with nothin’ to give
Snap that pic just to prove I ain’t lie
Stamped that pain like a badge I hide
Another thought, yeah — but I stayed in place
Didn’t give the reaper not a second of grace
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[Hook – Final Hook, Layered with Echoes of Past Hooks]
March 20th, felt my breath go ghost
Smoke in the glass, heart froze the most
Stared at the mirror like, “this the end?”
But I ain’t fold — I ain’t let that bend
Pain got deep, but the soul got loud
Whispers in my head tryna pull me down
Didn’t pull the trigger, didn’t take that fall
But that thought came back like a missed call
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[Outro – Calm, Fading Voice]
They’ll never know how close I was…
They’ll just hear the verse.
And I’m still here.
Even when I didn’t wanna be.
Always systematic