[Intro]
Yeah… ohh ohh
Mm, I can’t hide it… I can’t fight it…
[Verse 1]
Wake up, cloudy skies in my chest
Roll another just to try to find some rest
Weed smoke, wax hits, slow my mind down
Liquor in my cup, tryna drown these sounds
Every night feels like the same old song
Pop another pill just to keep me strong
But I’m fading, yeah, I’m breaking
Tryna keep from losing all control
[Pre-Hook]
Cuz I’ve seen too many gone too soon
Best friends layin’ under the moon
And mama’s heartbeat fading on the line
When that EKG flatlined…
[Hook]
I felt myself losing control of my life
Breathin’ heavy, tears fallin’ through the night
Crossfaded just to numb all the pain
But the hurt in my soul still remains
I’m losin’, losin’…
Control of my life, yeah…
I’m losin’, losin’…
But I still gotta fight, yeah…
[Verse 2]
Memories cut deep, scars on my mind
I replay that moment like I’m stuck in time
Every shot, every smoke, every pill I take
Only covers up the cracks but they still won’t break
I’m driftin’ further, can’t find my way
Voices of my angels tell me “you’ll be okay”
But the nights are long, the pain is real
Only way to cope is the things I feel
[Pre-Hook]
And I’m prayin’, prayin’, someone save me now
I don’t wanna let my soul hit the ground
But mama’s face still haunts me inside
That moment she flatlined…
[Hook]
I felt myself losing control of my life
Breathin’ heavy, tears fallin’ through the night
Crossfaded just to numb all the pain
But the hurt in my soul still remains
I’m losin’, losin’…
Control of my life, yeah…
I’m losin’, losin’…
But I still gotta fight, yeah…
[Bridge]
Ooh, sometimes the drugs don’t heal (nah)
Sometimes the liquor don’t fill (no)
That hole in my chest where love used to be
Now it’s grief and the smoke surrounding me
But I keep on goin’, I keep on survivin’
Even when I feel like my soul is dyin’
One step, one breath, I’ma learn to rise
Through the tears and the pain in my eyes…
[Breakdown – Extended Section]
I stay up all night, fightin’ my demons
Tryna find a reason, tryna keep believin’
Lost in the dark but I’m searchin’ for light
Know that one day, I’ll be alright
Yeah, I’m broken but I’m not gone
Still hear your voice tellin’ me “be strong”
So I’ll keep pushin’, won’t let go
Even when I’m losin’ control…
[Final Hook / Outro]
I felt myself losing control of my life
Breathin’ heavy, tears fallin’ through the night
Crossfaded just to numb all the pain
But the hurt in my soul still remains
I’m losin’, losin’…
But I still gotta fight, yeah…
I’m losin’, losin’…
But I’ll make it through the night…
Through the night… ohhh…
ReapEternal
