The true meaning of my feelings

I've been feeling like I'm falling out of love, and it's been really tough. I remember how deeply in love I used to be with you, and I'm desperately trying to find that spark again. It's like there's a piece of love missing, and I keep searching for it because our past feelings were so strong and meaningful. I don't want to lose what we had, but it's hard when things feel so different now. The lying and having your ex-girlfriend texting your number really made me feel deeply hurt and betrayed. It felt like a breach of trust that cut me to my core. I couldn't help but feel disrespected and unimportant, as if my feelings didn't matter. It created a sense of insecurity and doubt in our relationship, making it hard for me to feel the same way about you.I really don’t understand how to feel sometimes I get afraid to even express how I really feel cause I don’t want to hurt you but this mysterious feeling got me on a chokehold and you been nothing but an amazing person that has came into my life and I just don’t want to lose that I felt pushed away so I started pushing away myself cause I don’t want to get hurt or hurt anyone else with my feelings so I wrote it in a song