Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Twenty-three and I’m
Still learning how to stand
Left turn, broken glass
Still living in my hands
Every step costs pain
Every mile is a fight
I smile in the day
Then I fall apart at night
[Pre-Chorus]
You say, “You’ll be okay”
Like that should make it true
But you never saw
What this body puts me through
[Chorus]
Held back, held back
I’m still here, I’m still here
(Still here)
Held back, held back
You don’t know what I carry here
I’m tired of the ache
Tired of the fear
Held back, held back
At twenty-three, still here
[Verse 2]
The seatbelt left its mark
The memory left more
Sirens in my head
Every time I shut a door
PTSD in waves
I know that look too well
I’m trying to come back
But I’m trapped inside this shell
[Pre-Chorus]
You say, “Move on now”
Like it’s just a choice
But I’m fighting ghosts
Every time I hear my voice
[Chorus]
Held back, held back
I’m still here, I’m still here
(Still here)
Held back, held back
You don’t know what I carry here
I’m tired of the ache
Tired of the fear
Held back, held back
At twenty-three, still here
[Bridge]
Some days I hate the mirror
Some days I miss my old skin
I’m not who I was before
But I’m not giving in
So if I look slow
If I don’t answer right
I’m not lazy, I’m wounded
I’m just trying to survive
[Chorus]
Held back, held back
I’m still here, I’m still here
(Still here)
Held back, held back
You don’t know what I carry here
I’m tired of the ache
Tired of the fear
Held back, held back
At twenty-three, still here
[Outro]
Still here
Still here
Held back, held back
But I’m still here
Details
GeneratedJul 26, 2026
Duration3:55
LanguageEnglish
Style
Rock with mid-tempo driving drums, gritty palm-muted guitars, and a thick bass line that tightens in the verses; pre-chorus opens into ringing chords and tom fills, chorus hits with stacked gang vocals and a hooky guitar octave line. Verse keeps it close-mic and tense, bridge drops to half-time with a lone guitar figure, final chorus adds double-tracked vocals, crash cymbals, and a short feedback tail. Bright, punchy, emotional mix with rough edges., rock
Credits
Prompt byDimtsou23
ModelAria v5.5
Prompt
Struggling to get back to a normal life after a devastating car accident, feeling tired at only 23 dealing with all the pain, ptsd, and no one understanding how much this has hold me back, rock
