Lost soul

Cant you see that it’s time to set me free. I can’t keep living this hipocracy. It’s not a democracy. Just let me be. It’s time to let me go afloat to the lord who knows me and knows that I’m tired of holding on or pretending to be strong. God knows I can’t move on from a world without my babygirl to lift me up in this world filled with chaos and corruption. Now my hope and will to live has gone up into destruction. I’m tired of the despair it’s not fair I lost my one true love to an evilness that can’t be repaired!!!! Now I’m staring death in the eye as I cry my life away It’s not a play or a game. I’ve been treated like a lame cause of my depression and regressions I’ve been forced to live through. So let this sink in deep inside of you. I’m sorry to bring my family to shame by goodbye looking through a barrel of a millimeter 9.5. In hopes to be re United with the love of my life , Koko. My sweet babygirl who’s my entire world taken from me way too soon. Yeah we’ve been all over the country together but it’s not much of a victory cause We never even got the chance to fly around the world, to the Bahamas, or Tokyo. So here’s my accapela. I imagine us both playing in the sand til noon cause that was your favorite thing to do. The very best friend known to any human or entity. Nothing is exciting anymore. Not even Coachella. My God I can’t believe you left me. This pain aches to the very depths of my soul undoubtably. I can’t keep going on and on with life that’s nothing but strife and hell on earth just to please my family and there’s already a part of me that’s already dead inside anyways so please just keep looking the other way and seize the day like I’ve never existed before so you can keep going on and living in our memory and become a prodigy that I never got to be. I love you all. Peace

They keep saying they’ll be better days ahead but that’s exactly what I dread cause I rather you here instead

I miss the days I use to make up rap songs and sing to you while you looked at me like what’s going on. You were my biggest cheerleader baby no matter what, you were always here for me. Damnit man this is so fucking crazy! We were supposed to get grey hair together and be cute little old ladies while driving in a Mercedes. We atleast had 10 years together still maybe even 15. I always had visions of you on the cover of a magazine being the cutest little thing. Now I can’t stop vaping this nicotine while tears flow down my cheeks like a stream. I just wanna wake up from this traumatic terrible dream ! Everytime I close my eyes I feel you laying your head on my chest knowing you were safe with me to rest, thinking mommy you’re the best. Damn how could my world go so suddenly and horrifically. This was never suppose to happen you. I was suppose to keep you safe. You were taken from me so tragically. People expect me to move on from this magically. How can I ? This is a fucking catastrophe that’s now apart me!! Society says to just keep th