Im missing something

I’m going to be your option nor your last resort it either me or nothing at all and I’m you escape goat I’m the one that will hold you at night and keep you demons at bay with the light in the darkness but you threw it away along with my heart tore it pieces I made you a castle and you tore the walls down with army of toxic friends. I tried to fight for you but the demons kept coming thru. So please I may see what I’m missing and the that thing is not even you I moved to my peace and with a better life are kids will be taken care by ppl who are not you because I did what you couldn’t do so they could have a better life all I wanted was us to have a future but you wanted something different than family when you saw what that was you found every reason to get out of it even if it meant hurting and loosing everything to find the grass greener on the other side of the fence I guess what we had didn’t matter to you at all I guess I what I did meant nothing to you at all I guess what we had was just a joke to you but it’s find because all I wanted was a future with you and I can lie I can’t wait around on you to find yourself with that you put me through with the heartache and the headaches I just the I just want to know what I’m missing I can’t be the only one to put the energy in when that I have done for meant nothing to you and baby I can’t lie I just want to matter to you and I was blinded by thought of loosing you but I had already lost you when I looked into your eyes I will be okay because me and the thing I’m missing will be figured by something better