Finding my way back

I’ve lost my way in this world full of distractions..
I know the longer I wait to take action.
The longer and harder to find my  way back to satisfaction. 

I constantly ask my self why am I so weak. 
Why can’t I be stronger stay sober longer.
Why do I feel like I’m not normal?
Unless I alter the mind. Then I’m fine.
At first! But it’s not long before everything is going wrong. 
And we have another sad song.

I’m sick of this feeling
The hurt inside when I see what’s happing to the people I love as they follow me down this dirt road. That darkens the farther you go. That raps you up and won’t let go.
I already know , it’s not my first go, see I’ve been here before, I know what’s in store.
The sadness the pain, the picking your self up again, just to wonder if it’s going to happen again. With my past it’s hard to see if there is any hope for me. 

But I can’t think like that! It’s a trap 
I’ve fell there before so I know what’s in store.
I know what I have to do. Lord I have to call out to you! I do  know he’ll always be there to pick me up when I’ve messed it up. 

LORD I DROP TO MY KNEES
I need you lord please 
Please help me 
fill me full of your spirit 
Let me feel it  
In my heart 
Let me know 
It’s going to be alright 
Today lord 
let me start to heal today
Help me continue to pray 
I pray for my family lord 
That they can all forgive me lord
That they can do this with me lord.
Let them continue to lift me lord 
Lord I ask you please 
Please forgive me again 
For I am weak, please help me up again 
Its the first step  lord help me take it

Country ,blues  guitar, deep male voice, gospel