Of everything I couldn’t say
The ceiling knows my secrets now
It watches while I fade away
There’s a shadow in the hallway
That looks a little like myself
I tried to leave it years ago
But it followed me instead
And I don’t know
How much longer I can pretend
That I’m okay
When every day just starts again
There’s static in the walls
And silence in my head
I keep talking to nobody
Like somebody’s there
I’m sinking through the floor
But no one sees me fall
If this is what it means to live
I don’t want to feel at all
I keep my memories in boxes
So I don’t have to watch them die
Every photograph is proof
That I was happier sometimes
The mirror doesn’t recognize me
And I don’t blame it anymore
I’ve become a stranger
Standing in my bedroom door
And I don’t know
If there’s anything left to save
I’ve been digging through the wreckage
Of the person that I made
There’s static in the walls
And silence in my head
I keep talking to nobody
Like somebody’s there
I’m sinking through the floor
But no one sees me fall
If this is what it means to live
I don’t want to feel at all
Maybe I’m just tired
Maybe I’m just gone
Maybe all the pieces
Never fit me all along
I hear the world outside
But I can’t make myself go
Everybody’s moving
And I’m standing still below
Turn the lights off
Let the room go black
If I disappear tonight
Would anybody look back?
Turn the lights off
I don’t want to know
How long I’ve been pretending
That I still want to go
There’s static in the walls
And silence in my head
I keep talking to nobody
But nobody answers back
I’m sinking through the floor
And finally I understand
Sometimes being alive
Feels like forgetting who I am
The house is getting quiet
The static starts to fade
I close my eyes and listen
To the nothing that remains