Empty eyes

Empty Eyes in the mirror

keep staring at me

Just another lost soul to see

Keep pretendig I'm normal

Keep trying to be ok

On the outside I make my way

On the inside another wasted day

It will get better they say but then why I feel constantly rotting away

Fuck man why doesn't time heal the wounds of my life

fucking why i Sometimes still Feel a wish to die

why does the past feels like a knife

When will this end?

Feeling Like this strange world isn't mine

When will I be able to shine

What if I'm nothing more then the fading shadow,

when in me it is just an endless painful night

My brain is a fucked up void

that leaves everything destroyed

Why I feel like a disease, killing the souls around me,

like a tumor of nothingness

poisoning what's good for me

Helpless I drown in my brutal negativity

A unworthy demon is all I see

when the empty eyes in the mirror keep staring at me

Try to find a way to leave this Part of me

Afraid of the Monster i fear to be

No way Out, can't Go Back to the time

When i was able to See a flickering Flame

A Chance for Hope

Before the screaming silence get to loud again

Where is the Person i want me to be

The good some people can See

My existence feels Like a fucking lie

Maybe its a mistake that i am alive

But honestly i deserve this pain that leaves me dead inside

Leaving nothing but scars in everyone Close

Maybe its time to realize i devour all Like a black Hole

Maybe i should Stop to hide this demonic mind

Maybe its time for the Monster in me to win