Shadows Don’t Answer

I don’t raise my eyes anymore…

The ground feels safer than their stare.

Every step I take…

Feels like proof I don’t belong here.

I can’t look them in the eye, I’m afraid of what they’ll see,

The failure that I drag like a chain tied to me.

The world keeps moving, but I’m nailed to the floor,

Carrying mistakes that I can’t hide anymore.

I try to breathe normal, I try to pretend,

But every glance feels like judgment again.

So I hide my face in the shadows I know,

‘Cause if they see the truth, they’ll never let it go.

The shadows don’t answer, but they don’t betray,

They don’t judge my shame or push me away.

I’m begging for an out, I’m begging for release,

But the silence reminds me the pain never leaves.

Every mirror’s a coffin with my reflection inside,

Every word that I speak feels like another lie.

I walk past the crowds, but I’m never the same,

I’ve rehearsed every smile, but I choke on the blame.

And the devil just whispers, “They’ll never forgive,

You weren’t born to be saved, you weren’t born to live.”

How do you stand tall when your spine is ash?

How do you find light when the night won’t pass?

I’ve got scars on my soul that no one can see,

So I’m begging for an out, ‘cause it’s killing me.

The shadows don’t answer, but they don’t betray,

They don’t judge my shame or push me away.

I’m begging for an out, I’m begging for release,

But the silence reminds me the pain never leaves.

So I walk with my head down,

‘Cause I can’t face their eyes.

The shadows don’t answer…

But at least they don’t lie.

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