[Verse 1]
Coffee gone cold on the counter
Ash in the sink like snow
Your note on the fridge said “sorry”
Then nothing but the slam of the door
I drank through the drawers and the closets
Looking for some version of me
Found porn tabs
Pills
And a pay stub
That said I ain’t shit
Just a fee
[Chorus]
I’m caving in slow
Like a roof in the rain
Every drop finds a weakness
Every thought is a stain
You left your ring by the bedside
Said “baby
I can’t pretend”
Now I fuck up my mornings
My evenings
My friends
Praying for a crash that don’t end
I’m caving in
Caving in again
[Verse 2]
Mom won’t pick up when I call her
Guess she’s heard this story before
“Yeah
I’m fine
I’m fine
I’m fucking fine”
Talking to a disconnected tone
Bills in a pile on the table
Like teeth in a bloody grin
Therapist said
“you’re avoiding”
I said
“yeah
I avoid waking up again”
[Chorus]
I’m caving in slow
Like a lung full of smoke
Every drag tastes like you did
Every word chokes my throat
You left your boots in the hallway
Said “I’m not your medicine”
Now I fuck every weekend
I lie
And I binge
Just to feel any goddamn thing
I’m caving in
Caving in again
[Bridge]
[Steel guitar and fiddle call-and-response
Low vocal hums]
I curse at the ceiling till morning
I dare it to finally fall
If there’s a god in this rotten old house
He’s watching me crawl
Watching me crawl (oh)
[Chorus]
I’m caving in slow
Like a prayer said too late
Every sin that I swallowed
Comes back on a plate
You took your light from the hallway
Left me with my rotten grin
Now I fuck up my chances
My body
My brain
Just to prove I was never worth saving
I’m caving in slow
Like a song that won’t end
Every line is an echo
Of the way that you left
So if I go down to the river
With a pocket of rust and gin
Let the water say softly
“you tried
My friend”
Then pull me right under my skin
I’m caving in
Caving in again