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I feel so lost in this world.with out you. Never thought the day would come i have to live with out you. Imma send this text I know there's no reply just a note to the after life to tell how im feeling inside.

The house is full, but it doesn't feel like peace

Just the sound of them laughing, a sweet and sad release

I catch the way he looks at her, that little private smile

And I have to walk away, step outside for a little while

'Cause I forgot how to be me, without you by my side

All those stupid, flirting jokes, where do they go and hide?

So I just text your old number, staring at my phone

Type out how I miss you, standing here alone

I know the screen won't light up, I know there's no reply

But I send it to the afterlife, up into the sky

Hoping you can feel my thoughts, see me from above

I hit the floor on the inside, sending you my love

Forty years of living, and the rules have gone and changed

Trying to find a friend when the world is rearranged

The routine hits me heavy, the silence hits me deep

And the memories of our future are the ones I want to keep

We planned a bigger family, we planned a house to buy

And I'm holding onto every dream, even when I cry

Yeah, I still text your old number, staring at my phone

Type out how I miss you, standing here alone

I know the screen won't light up, I know there's no reply

But I send it to the afterlife, up into the sky

Hoping you can feel my thoughts, see me from above

I hit the floor on the inside, sending you my love

But the spark ain't gone completely, the girls are on my side

They know how much we wanted this, there is no place to hide

we try to start anew

A little piece of tomorrow, a promise kept to you

My next child gonna carry your name, Angelica, my dear

A living piece of heaven to help me through the year

I’m allowed to be sad, but I’m gonna be okay

That’s the promise to myself I whisper every day

I smile through the teardrops, let the heavy wave pass by

Look up at the ceiling, type a final goodnight sigh

I love you, Angelica.

Yeah, I really miss you now.