I don’t wanna feel

I cut once, I cut twice

It stops all the feeling inside

I cut again and I’m numb

I know it’s dumb but I don’t wanna stop

I don’t ever wanna feel again

Love is pain and feelings are weakness

That’s why I won’t ever stop

I get hurt too many times

I can’t take it much more

All this over thinking has got me crying

So I cut once, I cut twice

To stop all the feeling inside

I cut again and I’m numb

I know it’s dumb but I can’t stop

I don’t ever wanna feel again

All these voices telling me to do it

Telling me I’ll be better

I struggle to resist

Until all the walls are broken down

And I can’t resist any longer

I cut once, I cut twice

It stops all the feeling inside

I cut again and I’m numb

I know it’s dumb but I can’t stop

I never wanna feel again

It’s not worth it they tell me

But it only helps me so leave me be

I’ve lost everything in life

My mother went to prison when I was 9

And I’ve been beaten anytime I crossed a line

I was told to show no emotions

1 hit, 2 hit

1 cut, 2 cut there’s no difference

It’s my only way to cope and I can’t get enough

The way it makes me feel is something I can’t explain

I cut once, I cut twice

It stops all the feeling inside

I cut again and I’m numb

I know it’s dumb but I can’t stop

I never wanna feel again

I let them win, I listen to them

I cut deeper and deeper till I can’t feel

The blood keeps spilling but I don’t care

I can’t feel a single thing and that’s all that matters

I cut again and again so 1 cut turns into 2

And 2 turns into 5 and next thing I know

I have scars all over my thighs

Cutting is the only way to stop this horrible feeling

I don’t wanna feel anymore