Sergeant sabotage

Verse 1
I line it up, then I knock it down,
Build it just to burn it to the ground,
Soon as things start feelin’ right,
I disappear in the middle of the night.

Money comin’ in, I let it bleed,
Love knockin’ loud — I don’t answer me,
Every time I get close to peace,
I pull the pin — yeah that’s me.

Pre-Chorus (quiet, bitter laugh)
I don’t need enemies at the gate…
I outrank ‘em anyway.

Chorus
Sergeant Sabotage — that’s my name,
I wreck the good before it stays,
Relationships, love, the life I made,
Stand at attention — then I blow it away.
Yeah I salute, then I turn and run,
Self-sabotage — mission done.

Hum break
Mmmmm… mmm mmm…

Verse 2
Wife, child, marriage on the line,
I swear I’ll change every damn time,
Mean it hard, mean it true,
Then I do what I always do.

I don’t cheat, I don’t lie for fun,
I just don’t know how to sit in love,
Feels safer breakin’ it with my hands
Than waitin’ for it to break the man.

Pre-Chorus
I call it control, I call it pride,
Truth is — I’m scared what happens if I try.

Chorus
Sergeant Sabotage — reportin’ in,
Same old war, same old sin,
Finances, faith, skin and bone,
I turn everything good into a combat zone.
Yeah I see the blast before it comes,
Still pull the trigger — mission done.

Hum break (longer, tired)
Mmmmmmm… mmm mmm…

Bridge (spoken, low)
I’m not evil.
I’m not broken beyond repair.
I just learned survival
Before I learned how to stay.

Verse 3
I go to bed tired, wake up armed,
Defend myself from doin’ no harm,
I say “I’m fine,” I play it cool,
While I drill holes straight through the rules.

But lately I’ve been standin’ still,
Watchin’ my hands before they kill
Another chance, another year,
Another thing I hold dear.

Final Chorus (changed, quieter)
Sergeant Sabotage — standin’ down,
I see the pattern, I hear the sound,
Doesn’t mean I’m fixed today,
Just means I’m not lookin’ away.
Yeah the hardest war I’ve ever faced
Is leavin’ somethin’ good in place.

Outro (hum + line)
Mmmmm… mmm mmm…
Still here.
Still tryin’.

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