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I live my life fast because I’m scared of what’s behind me

The past is something I want to leave behind me

Sitting at the end of a dirt road is where you can find me

I contemplate life sometimes because I don’t recognize my worth

When I am around people I hide the pain

Because I don’t want to show them my tears of rain

My life has been hard, my living conditions might have been fine

But it’s hard to explain everything when I lose what’s mine

I hate when you love a girl and she leaves you because she says your too good for her

I feel like me being nice doesn’t matter about my presence at all

No matter how hard I try, I get recognized as annoying or I talk too much

I talk so much to keep my mind off the things that are constantly running through my brain

Multiple voices in my head telling me I’m not anything

Then another loud voice saying I’m going to be something

I don’t know if it’s just me or God talking

All I know is that I want to be something

It’s hard to let other people know of this pain

Because I don’t want others to feel my pain

Because if it breaks me down it will break them down

I just wish I could build walls up around me because I don’t belong around here

I guess friendships and relationships aren’t just meant for me

I don’t have the confidence to go any further sometimes

God is the only one I trust that I can make it

I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my life but it seems like they’re always replaying

I was scared when my parents were about to get a divorce

They were one more thing that I had in this life

Because family is the closest thing to me

There were bad times in between me and my family

So I felt like I didn’t have a family

So I tried to treat my friends like family

But sometimes you can’t trust your friends like family

Because if you do, they will take what you have told them and turn it against you

Toxic people mess up everything

They get the people you love involved with making you feel like your nothing

It will eat you down, until you can’t breathe

But you just have to take another breath

And breathe it in, because life is so much simpler when you have oxygen

It gets everything you need flowing in your brain