(Verse 1)
I learned young how to disappear
How to hold back every tear
In a house that never felt like home
I was surrounded, still alone
Spent my life trying to earn love
Giving more than enough
Hoping someday someone would see
There was a heart inside of me
So I worked until my hands went numb
Two jobs, school, chasing what I’d become
Running on dreams and no sleep
Trying to outrun what haunted me
(Pre-Chorus)
But pain has always known my name
And somehow love became the same
(Chorus)
I just want somebody to choose me
When the lights go out and life gets heavy
Not just love me when it’s easy
Not just stay when it’s convenient
I want honesty
Arms that feel like peace
After everything this world has done to me
I just want somebody
To choose me
(Verse 2)
I tried dating, tried opening up
But the world can be so cruel to love
Two months in and my whole life changed
Targeted just for my name
So I shut the door on everything
Buried myself in degrees
Two master’s later I stood tall
Still feeling broken underneath it all
Started a new path, a brand new life
Then six months in came the fight
Hospital walls, machines, and fear
Wondering why I was still here
(Pre-Chorus)
Still I got back up again
Even with a shattered skin
(Chorus)
I just want somebody to choose me
When I’m anxious, scared, and empty
Someone who won’t turn cold and leave me
The second loving me gets messy
I want something real
A heart that wants to heal
After all the damage that I’ve had to feel
I just want somebody
To choose me
(Bridge — BIG emotional lift)
Then I met you
And I thought somehow
Maybe this was what love talked about
You became my world
My safest place
Till I stopped recognizing my own face
Control disguised as “I love you”
Lies disguised as “I need you”
I carried us while you pulled me under
Till all that remained was emotional thunder
Then came the cheating
The debt
The betrayal
The nights I thought I’d never be stable
But I left
God, I left
Even when it felt like dying in my chest
(Soft Breakdown)
Two years alone
Learning how to breathe
Learning maybe loneliness
Was better than being unseen
Then I tried again
Believed somebody new
But heartbreak has a way
Of repeating what it wants to
(Final Chorus — biggest moment)
So will somebody finally choose me?
Not for what I give or who I can be
But for the soul that’s underneath me
For the man who’s tired of bleeding
I don’t need perfection
I don’t need fantasy
I just need somebody waking up
Still wanting me
After all the pain
After all the grief
I still believe there’s someone out there
Who will choose me
(Outro)
And maybe one day
I’ll stop begging love to stay
Maybe one day
Someone finally will.