Choose Me

(Verse 1)

I learned young how to disappear

How to hold back every tear

In a house that never felt like home

I was surrounded, still alone

Spent my life trying to earn love

Giving more than enough

Hoping someday someone would see

There was a heart inside of me

So I worked until my hands went numb

Two jobs, school, chasing what I’d become

Running on dreams and no sleep

Trying to outrun what haunted me

(Pre-Chorus)

But pain has always known my name

And somehow love became the same

(Chorus)

I just want somebody to choose me

When the lights go out and life gets heavy

Not just love me when it’s easy

Not just stay when it’s convenient

I want honesty

Arms that feel like peace

After everything this world has done to me

I just want somebody

To choose me

(Verse 2)

I tried dating, tried opening up

But the world can be so cruel to love

Two months in and my whole life changed

Targeted just for my name

So I shut the door on everything

Buried myself in degrees

Two master’s later I stood tall

Still feeling broken underneath it all

Started a new path, a brand new life

Then six months in came the fight

Hospital walls, machines, and fear

Wondering why I was still here

(Pre-Chorus)

Still I got back up again

Even with a shattered skin

(Chorus)

I just want somebody to choose me

When I’m anxious, scared, and empty

Someone who won’t turn cold and leave me

The second loving me gets messy

I want something real

A heart that wants to heal

After all the damage that I’ve had to feel

I just want somebody

To choose me

(Bridge — BIG emotional lift)

Then I met you

And I thought somehow

Maybe this was what love talked about

You became my world

My safest place

Till I stopped recognizing my own face

Control disguised as “I love you”

Lies disguised as “I need you”

I carried us while you pulled me under

Till all that remained was emotional thunder

Then came the cheating

The debt

The betrayal

The nights I thought I’d never be stable

But I left

God, I left

Even when it felt like dying in my chest

(Soft Breakdown)

Two years alone

Learning how to breathe

Learning maybe loneliness

Was better than being unseen

Then I tried again

Believed somebody new

But heartbreak has a way

Of repeating what it wants to

(Final Chorus — biggest moment)

So will somebody finally choose me?

Not for what I give or who I can be

But for the soul that’s underneath me

For the man who’s tired of bleeding

I don’t need perfection

I don’t need fantasy

I just need somebody waking up

Still wanting me

After all the pain

After all the grief

I still believe there’s someone out there

Who will choose me

(Outro)

And maybe one day

I’ll stop begging love to stay

Maybe one day

Someone finally will.