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Here I am a lost and lonely man without a fucking plan as I sit on this concrete bench wondering why I waste my time out here in the streets when I got family that I could be living life with instead I choose to survive and hide in the dark alley ways or abandoned cars to sleep and when I wake I beat myself down to my knees and scream.....

I have only ever wanted for my family to take pride in my life as I cry out to God and start blaming the man inside ....nothing left of me to keep in your memory or hold on to besides this goodbye I have held onto my entire life waiting to die a cold and lonely lie all I fucking want is for them to take pride so I don't have to hide again tonight........

Sometimes all we need is to feel that loving embrace that makes feel alive and real .....

And without we can not heal the scabs they turn to scars but first they must peal I love the way it feels when the skin starts to rip and peal and the blood begins to drip from my eyelids as I try to sew them shut ..........I don't wanna see the way you look at me anymore so as they bleed I get up off my knees because at the end of the day you all gave up on me so blind to the sight of the way you look at me and numb to tge pain that builds inside of me remember will be alone cold and in the dark where you all left me ..........yes right here i will be............

Out of the blew maybe I'll run into you and you won't know what to do because what you see in me will make you fucking weak and then you'll start tho think of the things you did to me mentally maybe invite me home to what I used to know but these are just some false hopes of mine .......I know you think I'm a fucking joke ......but don't choke on the way you made me feel don't think about me and if I'll ever heal the pain you all cause was oh so fucking real so this is the final goodbye from me I hope your fucking happy