[Verse 1]
I kept a box beneath the winter coats
With letters folded flat and photographs
Your mother said, “They’ll ask you when they’re older”
So I learned to hold my answer back
You thought my silence meant I had no reason
Thought I walked away without a fight
But some doors should not be opened for a child
When the room behind them isn’t light
[Pre-Chorus]
I wasn’t empty, I was waiting
For your hands to reach the truth
For the day your questions carried
More than wonder, more than youth
[Chorus]
When you’re old enough to understand
I’ll tell you where I stood
Why I let the blame fall on my name
When defending me could do no good
I saved my side beneath the years
And carried what I could
The truth has been waiting, my children
Until you’re old enough to understand
[Verse 2]
There were nights I heard you sleeping
And rehearsed the words beside your door
Every version sounded like a weapon
Every answer left you hurt some more
So I gave you ordinary mornings
Packed your lunches, fixed the broken chair
Let you build a childhood out of safety
While I kept the sharpest pieces there
[Pre-Chorus]
I wasn’t frightened of the question
I was frightened of the cost
Some truths arrive too early
And a child believes they’re lost
[Chorus]
When you’re old enough to understand
I’ll tell you where I stood
Why I let the blame fall on my name
When defending me could do no good
I saved my side beneath the years
And carried what I could
The truth has been waiting, my children
Until you’re old enough to understand
[Bridge]
You may not forgive me for the silence
You may wish I’d told you from the start
But I would choose the quiet all again
To keep a storm from reaching your heart
And if the truth makes everything feel smaller
If it changes every story that you knew
Know that every word I left unspoken
Was a way of staying close to you
[Final Chorus]
Now you’re old enough to understand
Come sit beside me here
I’ll tell you what I never told you
And I’ll answer every fear
I saved my side beneath the years
Not to win, but to be true
The truth has been waiting, my children
And I’ve been waiting here with you
[Outro]
The truth has been waiting
I was waiting too