The monster

I still get nightmares from the nights that would never end

The fighting

The lying

As I laid there in my bed

I could hear it all from my room right next to yours

Every single word and every single hit

Each one like bullets on her skin

It might be difficult for you to try and understand

Just what you did and just what you said

You know how easy it is for her to forgive you

And you take advantage cuz you think you’ll never run out of chances

And I

couldn’t do anything

at the time

Left defenseless in my home

Lit a match

Blew a fuse

No where left to confide

Cuz the monster came from inside

Dry tears lay across my face

Sink into my skin

That you painted blue

From all the times you felt that hitting a kid

Was exactly what you needed to make you feel big

The blood would run

The marks would scar

And that little boy never knew what he did wrong

To deserve all that pain

To deserve all that hatred

As he laid there crying over what your mistake did

And I

couldn’t do anything

at the time

Left defenseless

in my home

Lit a match

Blew a fuse

No where left to confide

Cuz the monster came from inside