Intro (Low, spoken) Say my name when you hear this, Drew. Because every fucking word belongs to you. I fucked up once. And you never let me forget it. Verse 1 (Spoken building to scream) My head is a locked room with the lights flickering Depression sitting heavy like it pays rent Anxiety rewinds every moment Till I don’t know what’s real and what my sickness invents I owned my mistake I said it out loud I took the blame, I swallowed the shame Till it hollowed me the fuck out But you don’t get to drag it back up Every time we fight You don’t get to slap me in the face with my past Just to feel fucking right Pre-Chorus (Snarled) That’s not accountability That’s control dressed up as “truth” Keeping me bleeding So no one looks too close at you Chorus (Screamed) YOU DON’T GET TO USE MY SIN LIKE A FUCKING WEAPON I PAID FOR THAT SHIT LEARNED EVERY LESSON YOU SWING MY GUILT LIKE A KNIFE EVERY GODDAMN FIGHT CALL IT LOVE, CALL IT HONESTY IT’S JUST YOU FUCKING UP MY LIFE Verse 2 (Screamed) You call me crazy when I panic Point at my mind when I break But funny how the spiral hits hardest When you start acting fucking fake You say “it’s all in your head” Like that erases the pain Like my illness gave you permission To keep driving me fucking insane I loved you through the sleepless nights Through shaking hands and fear Loved you while I hated myself While you disappeared when I needed you here Break (Shouted) I OWNED IT I BLED FOR IT I DON’T GET AMNESIA YOU DON’T GET TO TORTURE ME WITH IT Chorus (Screamed) YOU DON’T GET TO SLAP ME WITH IT EVERY FUCKING TIME YOU DON’T GET TO PLAY THE VICTIM WHILE I’M LOSING MY MIND I CARRIED THAT GUILT LIKE A NOOSE YOU SWING IT LIKE A RIGHT DON’T PREACH FORGIVENESS WHEN YOU LIVE TO PUNISH MY LIFE Bridge (Spoken, venomous) God, if You’re listening I’m not asking to be rescued I’m asking why loving him Feels like being fucking reduced If this is clarity You’re giving me Why does it taste like blood Why does truth feel like a curse And love feel like a fucking flood Breakdown (Chanted/Screamed) NOT YOUR PUNCHING BAG NOT YOUR SCAR NOT YOUR FUCKING ALTAR YOU DON’T GET TO KEEP ME BROKEN JUST TO FEEL CLEANER ABOUT WHO YOU ARE Final Chorus (All out) I DON’T WANT TO LEAVE THAT’S THE PART THAT HURTS BUT STAYING SHOULDN’T FEEL LIKE A LIFETIME FUCKING CURSE I LOVED YOU THROUGH THE DARK WHILE YOU KEPT ME THERE DON’T CALL THIS SHIT LOVE WHEN IT FEELS LIKE FUCKING WARFARE Outro (Low, steady) This isn’t me quitting. This is me standing up in the wreckage. I’m still breathing. Still bleeding. But I’m done being your weapon, Drew. But sadly I'll always keep fucking loving you!

Still breathing Still bleeding