Where am i

Sun comes up before I do
Little hands are pulling me through
Cartoons playing in the next room
Same routine, same afternoon
Coffee’s warm, then it goes cold
Tiny voices, stories told
I smile back, I play the part
But I can’t find where I left my heart

Laundry piles and lullabies
I’m here, but I’m just passing by
A ghost inside these kitchen walls
Answering to every call
Chorus
I don’t cry, I don’t break
I just move for their sake
Every day feels just the same
Different mess, but same old name
I love them more than words can say
But I feel miles and miles away
If love is strong, then why do I feel
Like I’m fading…
And nothing feels real?

Sticky fingers, bedtime fights
Rocking babies through the nights
Whispers of “Mom, stay with me”
God, they mean everything to me
But somewhere in the noise and cheer
I disappeared, I’m not right here
Lost myself in giving all
Now I’m no one at all

No big dreams, no space to breathe
Just quiet thoughts I never speak
The mirror shows a tired face
I don’t recognize this place

I don’t cry, I don’t break
I just move for their sake
Every day feels just the same
Different mess, but same old name
I love them more than words can say
But I feel miles and miles away
If love is strong, then why do I feel
Like I’m fading…
And nothing feels real?

And I hate that I feel this way
When they need me every day
They deserve a heart that’s whole
Not this numb, half-living soul
But I’m trying, God I try
Even when I feel like I’ve died
Still I hold them, still I stay
Even numb, I don’t walk away
Final Chorus (soft, emotional)
I might not cry, I might not break
But I’m here for their sake
Every day I show up still
Even when I feel this still
And maybe one day I’ll heal
And remember how to feel
Till then I’ll love them the best I can
With empty hands…
And a half-beating heart again

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