i made it without

I grew up in a house full of slammed doors and broken nights

Learning how to stay quiet just to make things feel alright

Every tear I cried alone got buried deep inside

While I kept asking myself why I was so hard to love in your eyes

You wore pain like armor, turned your anger into flames

And somehow I carried all the guilt while you escaped the blame

I was just a child trying to hold our world together

But every time it shattered, you told me it was my weather

And the last thing you said still echoes in my mind

“That’s your fault” — and I believed it for a long, long time

But I made it without you, Mom

Built myself from dust and scars

Turned those nights of crying in the dark

Into the fire inside my heart

I kept reaching for your love

Even when it tore me apart

Thought maybe this time you would change

But I was wrong from the start

Now I stand here stronger than

The little girl you broke apart

Yeah, I made it without you, Mom

And that’s the hardest part

I came back hoping maybe time had softened all your pain

Thinking maybe we could finally heal what still remained

But some people hold onto hurt so tight it becomes who they are

And loving them too closely leaves permanent scars

I watched myself shrink again trying to earn your pride

Still searching for a version of you that never arrived

And I hate that part of me still wanted you to care

Even after all the damage and all the empty stares

But your words don’t own me now

I finally found my voice

And surviving everything you did

Was never my choice

But I made it without you, Mom

Built myself from dust and scars

Turned those nights of crying in the dark

Into the fire inside my heart

I kept reaching for your love

Even when it tore me apart

Thought maybe this time you would change

But I was wrong from the start

Now I stand here stronger than

The little girl you broke apart

Yeah, I made it without you, Mom

And that’s the hardest part

I became somebody

Without your helping hand

Learned how to love myself

When you never really can

And maybe one day you’ll see

What your words did to me

But I stopped waiting for apologies

To finally feel free

Cause I made it without you, Mom

Through every wound and every war

And even though you left me carrying pain

I don’t carry it anymore

I turned heartbreak into strength

Turned survival into art

And the girl who thought she wasn’t enough

Now knows exactly who she are

Yeah, I made it without you, Mom

Still healing every scar

But look at me now…

I made it this far