Pretend

Dont pretend you love me, dont pretend you care,

Just because its convenient doesnt make it fair

Now you wonder why that I'm not there

The truth is theres not enough of me to share

Without sacrificing a part of myself

Without putting strain on my mental health

Without feeling like some dead broke melt

I refuse to wait up upon a shelf

Collecting dust and issues until it suits you

I wish even one of you could understand my view

I sit up at night thinking what tf to do

You didnt care till now and you know its true

Dont fuss and dont mourn and dont shed a tear

Just remember the one who was always here

Who until now couldnt realise their own fear

That he would be forgotten by everyone near

Like the force I'm treated like a myth

Created by the dark yet destroy the sith

My times been wasted that was my gift

And now left with a dark cold rift

Nobody left in which to confide

No energy left but the dark side

Twas a wonder I dint turn to crime

Now wonder if it's a matter of time

Maybe then you'd remember my presence

And no I'm not looking for paras or presents

Just not to feel like my times an event

Because it hurts like hell whether or not its meant