“Talk to God Different”

Spoken Intro – Voice Cracked, Beat Slow & Cold]

I still pray…

But it ain’t how I used to.

Now it’s quiet. Angry. Honest.

I talk to God different.

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I talk to God with my teeth clenched tight

Don’t fold my hands, I just curse at night

I don’t kneel down, I pace and scream

Sayin’, “Why the fuck you let me dream?”

You gave me pain, and I carried that well

But how many lessons till I live, not hell?

I don’t ask much, I just want some peace

But I talk to you different since I broke that piece

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You ever pray while your hands full of blood?

From fightin’ your mind in a bathroom flood?

You ever cry in a whip you crashed,

Thinkin’ “God, if you real, why this pain won’t pass?”

I done begged, I done screamed, I done whispered too

But the silence from you hit louder than truth

Told me “wait,” but I’m runnin’ out of time

Told me “heal,” but I’m hooked to the grime

They said “God is love,” but I seen God’s rage

In the mirror, in the past, in that notebook page

Now I light that blunt like a signal flare

And hope you show face, but you never there

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I talk to God with my teeth clenched tight

Don’t fold my hands, I just curse at night

I don’t kneel down, I pace and scream

Sayin’, “Why the fuck you let me dream?”

You gave me pain, and I carried that well

But how many lessons till I live, not hell?

I don’t ask much, I just want some peace

But I talk to you different since I broke that piece

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Maybe you real, maybe I’m just numb

Maybe these scars is the reason I run

But if you listen, don’t test me more

I done lost too much — I ain’t got a core

Tired of beggin’ for strength I already gave

Tired of buryin’ love in a hollow grave

I don’t hate you, but I damn sure question

If you hear me or just teachin’ lessons

This ain’t faith, this survival on fumes

This ain’t church, this my mind in a tomb

But I keep speakin’ — ‘cause deep in the night

I still want you to prove I’m worth this fight

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I talk to God with my teeth clenched tight

Don’t fold my hands, I just curse at night

I don’t kneel down, I pace and scream

Sayin’, “Why the fuck you let me dream?”

You gave me pain, and I carried that well

But how many lessons till I live, not hell?

I don’t ask much, I just want some peace

But I talk to you different since I broke that piece

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You said I’m built for more…

Then stop breakin’ me just to prove it.

Always systematic