Spoken Intro – Voice Cracked, Beat Slow & Cold]
I still pray…
But it ain’t how I used to.
Now it’s quiet. Angry. Honest.
I talk to God different.
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[Hook – Dark Melodic Trap, Reverb Heavy]
I talk to God with my teeth clenched tight
Don’t fold my hands, I just curse at night
I don’t kneel down, I pace and scream
Sayin’, “Why the fuck you let me dream?”
You gave me pain, and I carried that well
But how many lessons till I live, not hell?
I don’t ask much, I just want some peace
But I talk to you different since I broke that piece
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[Verse 1 – Raw Doubt and Fury]
You ever pray while your hands full of blood?
From fightin’ your mind in a bathroom flood?
You ever cry in a whip you crashed,
Thinkin’ “God, if you real, why this pain won’t pass?”
I done begged, I done screamed, I done whispered too
But the silence from you hit louder than truth
Told me “wait,” but I’m runnin’ out of time
Told me “heal,” but I’m hooked to the grime
They said “God is love,” but I seen God’s rage
In the mirror, in the past, in that notebook page
Now I light that blunt like a signal flare
And hope you show face, but you never there
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[Hook – Voice Gritty, Breaking Mid-Hook]
I talk to God with my teeth clenched tight
Don’t fold my hands, I just curse at night
I don’t kneel down, I pace and scream
Sayin’, “Why the fuck you let me dream?”
You gave me pain, and I carried that well
But how many lessons till I live, not hell?
I don’t ask much, I just want some peace
But I talk to you different since I broke that piece
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[Verse 2 – Reluctant Hope, Still Aggressive]
Maybe you real, maybe I’m just numb
Maybe these scars is the reason I run
But if you listen, don’t test me more
I done lost too much — I ain’t got a core
Tired of beggin’ for strength I already gave
Tired of buryin’ love in a hollow grave
I don’t hate you, but I damn sure question
If you hear me or just teachin’ lessons
This ain’t faith, this survival on fumes
This ain’t church, this my mind in a tomb
But I keep speakin’ — ‘cause deep in the night
I still want you to prove I’m worth this fight
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[Hook – Final Hook, Voice Cracking]
I talk to God with my teeth clenched tight
Don’t fold my hands, I just curse at night
I don’t kneel down, I pace and scream
Sayin’, “Why the fuck you let me dream?”
You gave me pain, and I carried that well
But how many lessons till I live, not hell?
I don’t ask much, I just want some peace
But I talk to you different since I broke that piece
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[Outro – Whispered Voice]
You said I’m built for more…
Then stop breakin’ me just to prove it.
Always systematic