Whispers in the Night

Whispers in the night, shadows in my mind,

Each sound a ghost, it’s so hard to unwind.

Trying to hold on, to what’s left of me,

But the memories haunt, like a dark melody.

A touch of warmth, then the cold came through,

In the glimpse of tears, I still see you.

Three years gone, yet I'm trapped in a tale,

Where anger blooms wild, and I’m starting to pale.

I reach out for her, but I can’t find the way,

A storm in my heart, pushing her away.

These nightmares are heavy, can't break free tonight,

The echoes of sorrow keep dimming the light.

Lord, lift this weight from my soul,

I’m wandering lost, can’t regain control.

Show me the path that can lead me back home,

‘Cause in this endless fight, I feel more alone.

Tried to build a bridge, but the fire burned bright,

With every harsh word, I’m losing the fight.

The tears that she’s shed, they pierce like a knife,

I won’t lose her too, she’s my reason for life.

Whispers will fade, I just need a sign,

To heal all these wounds, to follow a line.

I’m weary and broken, but I can’t let go,

I’ll face all my demons, so she’ll never know.

Lord, make this end, the voices in my mind from that night, I can't talk to my wife about, because it was her daddy we lost, I don't know how to get this out, I've almost lost my wife, to all this anger, confusion, Lord just take this cup from me, give me your spirit and soften my heart Lord, so my wife can see I still love her, I just have so much weight that I don't know how to get rid of it. I'm trying to come to Lord but I can't find you where are, you Lord why am I forsaken, I just want to be your child Lord and have my wife and kids, these nightmares never end, I can still see everything from that night and all the crys my wife prayed while I was tending to her dad. Her screaming God no please no not my daddy not my daddy. The cry out when she heard the doctor said they couldn't revive him. Why did you take him away from her when she just got him back, where are you Lord, can you even hear me, crying out to you, why can I get rid of these nightmares, I've almost lost my marriage several times.

Thank you Jesus for never leaving my side, I'm sorry for being angry at you Lord, thank you for being there, even when I felt alone

Jesus your my savior I love you Jesus