The hole I’m in

Title: “The Hole I’m In”

Verse 1

Hate how I have to put a fake smile on

Just to show people I’m fine

When deep down I’m really not okay

And I’m running out of ways to hide

I want to climb out of this hole I’m in

But a part of me kinda wants to stay in

‘Cause down here I don’t have to lie

I can let the tears fall from my eyes

I’ve been carrying this weight for so long

Trying to act like nothing is wrong

But every night when the world goes quiet

I’m fighting battles I keep denying

Pre-Chorus

And I don’t know how to ask for help

When I don’t even understand myself

I’m screaming but nobody hears

I’m drowning in all of my fears

Chorus

So I’ll keep breathing through the pain

Even when I’m standing in the rain

I know I’m broken but I’m still here

Trying to face another year

Maybe I’m lost, maybe I’m tired

Maybe I’m walking through a fire

But somewhere deep inside my soul

There’s still a part that wants control

Verse 2

I laugh with everyone like I used to

But they don’t see what I’m going through

They see the person I pretend to be

Not the person I hide underneath

I’ve been blaming myself for everything

For every mistake and every sting

Thinking maybe I’m the reason why

I keep falling apart inside

And I wish I could go back in time

Tell my younger self he’ll be alright

That the scars don’t mean the end

Sometimes you break just to build again

Pre-Chorus

But I don’t know how to let this go

I’m scared of change, scared of hope

I’ve lived in this darkness for so long

I forgot where I belong

Chorus

So I’ll keep breathing through the pain

Even when I’m standing in the rain

I know I’m broken but I’m still here

Trying to face another year

Maybe I’m lost, maybe I’m tired

Maybe I’m walking through a fire

But somewhere deep inside my soul

There’s still a part that wants control

Bridge (quiet)

Maybe I don’t have to fix everything tonight

Maybe I just need to survive the fight

One small step, one more day

One little reason not to fade away

I’m more than the thoughts in my head

More than the words I never said

And even if I don’t see the light

I’ll keep searching through the night

Final Chorus (bigger)

So I’ll keep breathing through the pain

I’ll find my strength again someday

I’m not the darkness that I feel

I’m still fighting, I’m still real

Maybe I’m lost, maybe I’m tired

But I’m still walking through the fire

And even in this empty hole

I’m finding pieces of my soul