Title: “The Hole I’m In”
Verse 1
Hate how I have to put a fake smile on
Just to show people I’m fine
When deep down I’m really not okay
And I’m running out of ways to hide
I want to climb out of this hole I’m in
But a part of me kinda wants to stay in
‘Cause down here I don’t have to lie
I can let the tears fall from my eyes
I’ve been carrying this weight for so long
Trying to act like nothing is wrong
But every night when the world goes quiet
I’m fighting battles I keep denying
Pre-Chorus
And I don’t know how to ask for help
When I don’t even understand myself
I’m screaming but nobody hears
I’m drowning in all of my fears
Chorus
So I’ll keep breathing through the pain
Even when I’m standing in the rain
I know I’m broken but I’m still here
Trying to face another year
Maybe I’m lost, maybe I’m tired
Maybe I’m walking through a fire
But somewhere deep inside my soul
There’s still a part that wants control
Verse 2
I laugh with everyone like I used to
But they don’t see what I’m going through
They see the person I pretend to be
Not the person I hide underneath
I’ve been blaming myself for everything
For every mistake and every sting
Thinking maybe I’m the reason why
I keep falling apart inside
And I wish I could go back in time
Tell my younger self he’ll be alright
That the scars don’t mean the end
Sometimes you break just to build again
Pre-Chorus
But I don’t know how to let this go
I’m scared of change, scared of hope
I’ve lived in this darkness for so long
I forgot where I belong
Chorus
So I’ll keep breathing through the pain
Even when I’m standing in the rain
I know I’m broken but I’m still here
Trying to face another year
Maybe I’m lost, maybe I’m tired
Maybe I’m walking through a fire
But somewhere deep inside my soul
There’s still a part that wants control
Bridge (quiet)
Maybe I don’t have to fix everything tonight
Maybe I just need to survive the fight
One small step, one more day
One little reason not to fade away
I’m more than the thoughts in my head
More than the words I never said
And even if I don’t see the light
I’ll keep searching through the night
Final Chorus (bigger)
So I’ll keep breathing through the pain
I’ll find my strength again someday
I’m not the darkness that I feel
I’m still fighting, I’m still real
Maybe I’m lost, maybe I’m tired
But I’m still walking through the fire
And even in this empty hole
I’m finding pieces of my soul