Had a friend in the past cared about her even loved her but now she nothing
She fucked this guy got aids and I warned her but she never listened
Now she does drugs, smoke, Drinks and she lost me
Shut the fuck up I don’t care about her anymore I got depressed for her cried for her but in the end it didn’t matter
She out my life for good never want her back it always better to be by myself and not worry about people that don’t even care about you
Ima never gonna change ima stay the same because that me she wanted me to change but thank god I didn’t listen
Now I learn my lesson and stay away from people like that
But one Day she came crying to me that she missed me and wanted to be with me I told her no I can’t do this anymore
I pushed her away now weeks pass she got my Instagram don’t know how she got it she calls me and sends me messages I gave in
I hanged out with her she offered me a blunt I took it felt good she offered me a drink I got crossed faded that night
First time too… Panic attack started kicking anxiety my hands were shaking my body felt weird
All I hear in the background is her laughter and a bright light shining on me she was recording me my anxiety went up I started throwing up
I felt like I was gonna die that day drank too much smoke too much and I thought she cared but I forgot about my pass experience with her
She said she has changed but she never did I played the fool to her game I drove intoxicated thank god I didn’t get stop by the cops or crashed that day could of died no joke
I got home safe I couldn’t open the door my anxiety was bad
My mama woke up saw me in this state something I never wanted her to see I started crying saying sorry to her she hugged me and walked me to my room
I still cry thinking about that day the face my mama will never fade from my memory she was disappointed worried but she didn’t say anything
We never talked about it and I never brought it up my father doesn’t know and will never know I can’t disappoint him again
to this day she stills tries to talk to me she showed me that she cutting her self it hard now I want to care but I’m scared don’t want to be the fool anymore it hurts seeing her like that
Friend and Co-worker tell me to forget about her it a waste of time I’m just gonna get hurt again I can’t go through that anymore sorry I hope you find happiness and stop doing things to hurt you goodbye forever
Dear mama thank you for being there for me and supporting me on everything I do your the best love you mom I’m try my best for you
