When You Were Silent

(female voice, almost whispering)

I searched for You

In the noise of my breaking

In the ruins of prayers

That never seemed to leave the ceiling...

(small choir enters softly: “Ohhh… ohhh…”)

I called Your name with trembling hands

While standing in my darkest hour

The night was cold, the sky was shut

And grief had all the power

I begged for signs, I begged for peace

For one small light to hold

But heaven felt so far away

And my heart was growing old

Still somehow in the silence

You stayed beside my soul

Even when I couldn’t feel You

You never let me go

So I will love You through the hurting

Love You through the rain

Love You when my hands are shaking

And tears fall down like chains

Because You held me in the shadows

When I thought the end had come

Even broken hallelujahs

Still reach Your heart, my God

(Choir stronger)

“Still reach Your heart… still reach Your heart…”

There were nights I almost gave up

Nights I drowned inside my fear

I smiled before the world outside

While secretly wishing You were here

And I was angry that You waited

Angry You seemed so still

But maybe faith was never meant

To only bloom on hills

Maybe faith is crawling wounded

Through valleys black as stone

And choosing You at midnight

When you feel completely alone

And now I see the shattered pieces

Were never wasted dust

Every scar became a window

Teaching me to trust

So I will love You through the hurting

Love You through the rain

Love You when my soul is tired

And nothing feels the same

Because You carried me through battles

I survived but never won

And somehow in my weakest moment

You called me still Your own

(Choir harmonies)

“You called me still Your own…”

(music drops — only piano and soft choir)

If You want my heart — take all of it

Not only the strong parts

Not only the worship

But the fear…

The anger…

The shattered pieces too

(pause)

Because real love bleeds

Real faith cries

And real hope sometimes

Falls to its knees

(drums rise slowly)

But I would rather walk through fire with You

Than stand in paradise alone

So I will sing when I am broken

Sing when I can’t breathe

Sing when all I have is ashes

And one last melody

Because Your love reached down and found me

At the bottom of the sea

And every wound became a doorway

Leading me back to peace

(Full choir)

Hallelujah in the heartbreak

Hallelujah through the storm

Even with a shattered spirit

I am still Yours

(only choir and piano)

I am still Yours…

Even here…

Even now…

(whisper)

My God…

I’m still Yours.